Reading the book that Hilda lent me -.-
Hiaz but too bad i'm not christian =x
Am i?
Wells i cant say that i'm not but i wont say that i am either.
So what does that make me?
People say matters of the heart just follow your heart.
Matters that need to think use ur brain.
But matters of faith?Use your?
_______
Speechless =x
maybe? Maybe not.

Relationships hiaz. i dont know what to say about them.
People just want the intimacy without the commitment.
Heres one thing that the book said.

-"When we broke up it was definately the toughest thing that's ever happened to me," Jayme told me afterwards. Even though physically they'd never go beyond a kiss, Jayme had completely given her heart and emotions to Troy. Troy had enjoyed the intimacy while it served his needs but then rejected her when he was ready to move on.

Does this story sound familiar?
Yea totally it struck me -.-
Made me want to read it more.
But somehow the feel with god in this book makes me unwilling to read it.
Hiaz.
Still i'm commited to read this book i've stopped at page 27 so i shall continue when i've more "courage" and faith" soon.

1st of all i'm feeling so bad i dint post yesterday morning =/
well i woke up at arnd 11+?
I dont remember what time i slept
But geez.
Anyways i went to work early as REQUESTED!.
AND SOMEONE HAS DEFINATELY HAVE ALOT OF THINGS RUNNING THROUGH HER MIND.
Wells it's her "BEST FRIENDS" birthday.
What more can i say?
Probably some other stuff.
She's changed.
Well she gave me a card as well as LENT me a book.
I kissed dating goodbye.
Wells i've no intention of really going into it.
But she asked me to read it.
So i shall.
I've so many things running through my mind as well
I'm feeling super high yet depressed at the same time.
Thought about my ex again..
Thought about my birthday..
Was soo looking forward to it this year actually.
To celebrate it with someone i love.
Someone i thought loved me.
Someone i thought was different.
Someone who TURNED TABLES AROUND AND SHOT AND STABBED ME IN MY FACE.
But somehow i dont feel angry anymore.
I'm just feeling sad.
Not slightly sad. just depressed.
Disappointed maybe?

Anyways. "Today" at work was super rush -.-
The orders kept coming OMG LA.
930 AND ORDERS STILL COMING IN.
How to do closing etc la!
But we made do
HEHEHE I'M SUPERMAN =X
Anyways today Bong was super depressed.
Till i SOLVED HIS PROBLEM!
Yay x]]
Cant say what it is though.

Hilda i've alot of things to say -.-
And you better not mis understand me.
And i dont think you will.
About the card you sent me
DARN YOU BETTER GET A LIFE MAN!
Its a "repeating" card.Keep saying the same things over and over again.
But its super appreciated.
I'll carry it wherever i go.

I hope everyone can get along well.
Everything seems to be changing.
Everyone seems to be changing as well.
Everyone has something they want.
But i'm still stuck.
Though i'm moving?
I'm still stuck somewhere in this crazy maze.

Hope that i seriously can get a good job settle down wait for army
And get _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ to know how much i think about her.
But i've only this to say la -.-
After everything someone has done to me.
Done with me.
Done for me.
its seriously NOT Appreciated
If you really wanted to do something you should have tried.

Today i went to buy a new pair of shoes xD
82 dollars x]]
Okay you'll will see it soon.
Who ever you are x]
Tml must go work EARLY
Cas, Someone wants to pass me something
Today was a great day haha.
I think at least i think i had fun by myself.
Just went to shop for my shoes and bought this wristband.
Than i went to my grands.
Met my cousin and "pampered" my grand.
Than i came home.
Borring?
But it was quite Hmm fun guess i still love my cousin as much as eva.
x]
She reminds me of alot of things x]
And my grands house area changed alot
JUST 3 MONTHS K!
and its like WOW?
Lols.
K i'm speechless x]]
TILL ANOTHER TIME !

I'm sleepy.
I've no mood to post today.
Today Leslie asked me go lan.
Today was boring.
Today Leslie talked to me about Zhiwei.
Today i went home alone.
Today i went "marketing"
Today i messaged charmaine and she's not replying me after "school"
Today is just...
Today is ending.

I wish today could turn its self around and maybe i could have a better day.
Today sucked actually.
Today i wished that i just slept it away.
Today Is just another day that i've to get over.

SOMEONE OWE'S ME A TAG.
But that someone probably wont read my blog anymore
HAHA!
Sorry about yesterday too.
Just that night time is a really reflective time for me whether i want it or not.
I've had so many callings.
So many things that has happened in my life.
The "lessons" and the syn in my feeling with god and stuff.
But as it went on its not i dont wanna believe its too much.
Hopefully i know what i'm doing.

Slept at 4.3x + dont remember or later.
Woke up to leslies call.
Now i need prepare go out play lan?
Zzzz never mind today last day.

Lalala i'm just a fickle minded person.
Sleeepppyyy
Hungry too i dont know what i going to do today.
Slack slack ^^

Today work was extremly boring i did only like 6 orders on my own?
ROFL the others did the rest.
Than my kitchen MANAGER BEST.
His friends came.
Than i took charge?
And i'm not the most senior lo
ROFL .
So funny xD
Anyways i did my part and instructed the rest what to do
So fun la!

Hilda said i was hyper HAHAHAHAHAHA
xD today soo funny.
Hilda and Charmaine both made me laugh like mad.
But seriously CHARMAINE YOU'RE HILLARIOUS xD
hahahahaahahaa =x

Ai ya either way today was a fantastic day thanks to 2 people.
Thank you girls x]]
BIG SMILY FACE!! :)))))))
HAHAHA crazie me x]] i know.

Its like i got bored.
And as usual i'm stoning.
Seriously la.
Why am i always being Contradicted or misunderstood.
Am i that complicated?
Or is it just me?

Hiaz cant be bothered.
And someone still does not keep her word.
And does not mean what she says.
If she ever reads this she did probably know herself?
And once again i've to say this la.
I'm also quite alike! I CANT HELP MYSELF AT TIMEs?
But its just so influential?
I got bored okay?
And the thing that really pisses me off is that whatever she's said is everything that i've done.
I salvaged , i tried , i pushed for happiness our happiness. -.-
Unfortunately you dint feel that way or do the same.
Selfish but true.
Reflect? About what? How do you reflect?
Look at yourself or those around you? Your actions? Your thoughts? Your influences?
Your friends?Your pride?.
Basically when it comes to me i just go i'm sorry for everything because if it has me involved in it and its made someone sad,disappointed or anything bad.
I'm at fault already.
And i'll do my best never to make that person sad again.
But sometimes WHY CANT YOU JUST OPEN YOUR EYES BIGGER AND SEE.
Its is around you. THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO WILL LOVE YOU INSIDE AND OUT.
But you just cant find them SO STOP PLEASE STOP SAYING IT DOES NOT EXIST.
And stop being so straight in your thoughts ITS NOT JUST ME.
EVEN YOUR "FRIENDS' THINK THE SAME. Actually "they" told me.
AND I AGREE.
But its over.'
I was listening to Chris Daughtery "over you."
The song i used to "get over my ex"
And its really really saddening.

Dont judge people, Dont LOOK at them like that.
Because we're all NOT the same so how can you say that we're
Dam these people. Those who corrupt our system
Those who hurt others.
I seriously hate those people.
Maybe "you" too.After all this shit.
What are friends?
How to be a good friend?
What are real friends and true friends?

Hold your pride.
And give in. Let go. And listen to people and change.
You dont have to understand now because in time you will.
People grow up.
They experience and they know.
Why wait till than?
Just do what you can.

I'm sorry for misunderstanding you LESLIE.
But you mix around this kinda fucked up people
i seriously will get seriously pissed offed really.
I've my limits too and he's crossing the line.
I'm not that tolerant anymore so TELL HIM TO PISS OFF.
And my account is for YOU AND ME.
If he wants to play?
tell him to F-OFF.
Got his own char still wan play others people put their effort and time into training.
He still wan come f- around?
I'm not like his best friend or something k?
I wont even consider him a friend.
He's just a "PLAY MATE"
Maybe you are too? I dont know cas i seriously dont care.

Thanks for helping me and my ex in our starts.
But i'm glad its over anyways.
But you had your intentions too.
So i've nothing to say about that if you were really my friend.
Life..has so much to offer.
But people make things so limited.

Okay i thought my blog was wordy.
But NUKUN.
YOUR'S IS TERRIFIC!
its like totally 'BLANK'
But i've like errr 3-4 post a day? ROFL?
But once again its filled with crap.
hiiazz Today i walk to Dawson's NTUC to look for HILDA'S "CARROT CAKE"
white radish
But unfortunately i dont know where to buy those "cooked/Steamed" prepared carrot cake like instant carrot cake you just throw in the 'BIG WOK" and fry.
According to HILDA. xD
hahahahahahaha.
But i know how to do it from scratch but its a long and tedious process but its fruits of your own labour so you really taste how its made and your own personal ingredients and you know what you throw in and stuff.
Than forget it i walk go back MRT station and went to my work place.
OMG LA I SLACKED THERE FOR LIKE ALMOST 5-6 HOURS?
Bored like sheet.
realised i was super tired. than i remembered i only had like 2 PROPER hours of sleep
Omg i'm really un healthy now.
My face is dry.
I'm feeling super dry
I'm falling sick easily? MAYBE?
wadeva.
Than i pei Jeroen go eat.
Talked abit about certain things
To believe or not to believe.
To believe but not to go 100%
Because you can believe but sometimes life is just not the same as whats that's said.

Than they all ask me
and charmaine too.
If you like that person go for it.
What are you holding back for?
If you let the chance go you might never have it again.
But the person i like is just someone i need to give time to settle down 1st.
Of course its my own opinion.

I need to wait.
Just awhile more...
I'm officially getting off NYDC already.
shit and i've not settled down with my 2nd job yet.
Dammit.
okay i'll definately need alot of gel or wax.
I've counted
If i work every morning at 7-5 thats 10 hours 60 dollars + if i work NYDC night time 6-1030 or -12 thats 5x4.5 / 6 = 22.5 / 30
can earn about 80 a day?COOL YA?
80 X 25 - if i wanna rest or something
about
1.6k ++ OMGG xD
The though of it gets my excited le.
But i want a job with higher pay lei.
Zzzz i finding 7 an hour de.
Dedicated worker finding a STABLE JOB!
Anyone can intro ma?

I shall slack and go maple for now.
Dont know wan go lan or not.
I'm super exhausted

Sometimes if you dont have a good book to read?
Find a good BLOG to read
hey i'm not saying mine is a good blog.
But i happened to come across a few RANDOM BLOGS.
Popping out occasionally with interesting topics.

Anyways i had a dream last night.
I dreamt of _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
And she was like telling me.
Lets get married.=S
OKAY THAT'S EXAGGERATION.
But than i rejected her and i told her i wont live that long.
Because i dint take care of myself.
And i'm not healthy and not able to look after her.
hiaz. so "man" right
ROFL
Even my dreams are so spastic.omg -.-
But if there really is a time like that what would i do?
Whats the best thing to do.

-Back to the dream
She said its alright i love you.
It does not matter - OMG I WISH THAT WOULD HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE.
Than she said
You love kids dont you?
Lets have a few.

HUH?!
DIAOS OKAY i shan't exaggerate about my dream anymore.
hahahaha but omg it was really worth laughing about when i woke up

Keep playing with the hamster.
My sister was so frantic about it when she woke up
OMG WHERES MY HAMSTER!!
geez and to think about it that was like 2 hours after i officially fell a-sleep and than I COULD NOT SLEEP AFTER THAT.
Got online wanted to blog but dint.
Watch bleach movie again.

-To continue what was left hanging long ago.

hiaz you know sometimes when you watch this kinda shows
and you learn different things
ITS LIKE IT CONTRADICTS.
As usual.

Char char.I'm a lost widdle boii xD
But sometimes i really do wonder.
We started off as an accident.
Than we became ENEMIES.
than now?
are we like good friends?
or BEST FRIENDS? or just
f.r.i.e.n.d.s?
Hmmm but i really find our encounter really funny and i seriously appreciate it.
You're the best friend i have x]
really.
Though sometimes you might be a pain in the ass.
But i believe i'm much worse xD
HAHAHAHAHAHHA =x
Yesterday i was re-emphasised about 1 thing.
Paul appreciate what you're.
Be grateful and thankful for what you have.
I'm trying and i hope i'll remember and do that.
every little small happy detail.
Put them all together and overwhelm your sadness.

-When i'm happy i become insensitive
I WISH I WAS INSENSITIVE
I WANNA BE HAPPYY
wHeheheee
God i sound like a psychopath
BUT I KNOW I'M STRAIGHT
x]
I going shopping now.
Than i've to go take my psp back.
hiaz i hope i can get what i need.
I'M LIMITED TO LIKE? 10 DOLLARS?

Haha till than.
have a great day everyone!

Okayy i'm still up
And Hilda sent me this message that shes _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
Erms?
In what way does that concern me?
Lolz my kind of characteristics care meh?
I've someone on my mind.
Than i ask myself whats love.
What are friends.
Biang eh i'm confusing myself with alot of shit and crap.
Than she said another thing that i'm "knowledgeable"
What the geez~.
I'm so blur.
Probably now i'm sleepy and watching this "_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _" Anime.
Rofl.
Hiaz what eva la.
I just want to have a gf? ROFL

yay i spent an entire day stoning today.
Okay i played abit of MAPLE?
wtf right? ROFL how old liao still playing maple.
Zzz but thats the only "nice" game that this lousy computer can support.
So oh wells.
Made a m'sia friend.
She wants me to teach her english?
Zzz as if my english really that good.
Play play play.
6+ already o.0!
Bong called.
PAUL WHERE ARE YOU!!
errr?
At home?
YOU KNOW YOU WORKING TODAY ANNOT.
Huhsss? o.0??
LOL i dont know sia.
I tot i working tuesday, friday , sat only?
YOU WORKING 4 DAYS LA
Orrhhssss. Okay i come down now.
Than i went down to work.
Okay but i finished doing my PQ(party quest) 1st than i go.
Rofl.
Reach work at arnd 645
WALKED - Took my time sia rofl.
THAN
at work so SUPER BORING SIA.
nothing to do one lei.
Than that VIVIAN KEEP MOLESTING ME
omgggg.
Talked to Hilda today.
AND SHE HAVEN REPLY MY MSG YET
Dont careee~.
Really i cant be bothered.
But hey she's a great girl.

Yawnz. Wtf i'm bored.

ohh Hilda just replied me.
Rofl soo weird -.-

haha thanks, Mr psychologist:)
ROFL thats wad i wanna be when i grow up.
Cool~
K i dont wish to crap cas really i've nothing to say.
GIVE ME PROBLEMS. I'M BORED.
Let me solve them for you.

Good morning everyone?
AFTERNOON ALREADY LA.
Hehe soo bored.
T_T i'm still having flu.
Than again people say i've no "guts" to die.
Since i've nothing to live for since i've no meaning or will to live
Why dont die.
Probably because i've some answers i really want to know but its something that i cant get now.
I need more time.
Than again i always DO and MEAN what i say
But sometimes when i know whats right and wrong.
When the time comes and its not supposed to be that way.
I wont do it.
wadeva i'm just contradicting everything x]

Friends.
Friends can mold you and break you.
Friends can change you and destroy you.
Wait so now is it better to have friends or not?
Who are the good friends?
Roawr dont care its best to be ALONE =X

I stoned for like HOURS
Wheee.. x]
._. - Lamed xD
Never mind went to work.
I HAVE FLU AGAIN.
WTF.
Okay than i dint talk much.
Know someone new today.
Name Jill - AGE - cannot be MENTIONED.
She ownself tell me cannot tell de.
Than i know.
I'm not alone in this world.
Hey hey hey this is fun i'm like quitting and this kinda people's pop up in my life.
OMGGESS
Rofl whats this supposed to mean!
GOD WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL MEE.
Dont care i'm sick and i want to sleep.
For now i shall retire into bed!

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