I msged her yesterday during work.
She dint reply.
I remember the day i celebrated her birthday.
I remember Maureen's birthday.
I remember all this shit -.-
I'm forgetting.
Because I'm putting scenarios together.
From my friends case.
And other "cases"

She wont find me again.
She meant what she said.
We're not meant for each other.
I know that myself.

I can go find her but I'm not interested to.
Her birthday wish.
What was it?
I don't wanna know or care already.
Just thinking back.
Looking forward.
How to improve
How to change..
What to do...

I don't know how i feel.
I don't know what to say.
But I just drank 2 cups of milk and water after.
I felt the milk while drinking water.
-Moral? (Self Said)
Depending on how "Concentrated" the milk is.
Will therefore need a certain amount to wash that taste away.
More? Or just abit will do.

-Love
How deep was the love?
How much time will you need to get over it?
More? Or just cant be bothered cas that love was not even there?

Reflecting.
Why bother about someone who does not care.
Or who "cares"
But in the wrong way.
I cant go around saying that my next gf is my 1st gf.
You're my 1st.
And i wanted to have just 1 gf for my entire life.
That's me.

How much it means to me.
How much a relationship means to me.

Its everything.

These dreams..
What are they?
Memories?
Or my far sight?
Because they're changing.
Too frequently.
Reality? Or just a dream...

-Quoted from Sylvie quite awhile back.(taken from chat history)
look, tell her that for what she's done, she's not worth it
and that you don't want her answer

I feel so wasted -.-
Feel that this relationship was something i should have not been into
Though i had a feeling we would break.
I knew we would break.
But i never knew she would be like this.
Someone who mis understands me.
Someone who mis interprets me.
Who makes my love seem like its all wrong.
No one is perfect yes i agree that i have flaws.
Who doesn't

She said this b4.
When i look at your BAD points i don't know why i accepted you.
My BAD POINTS?
what are my BAD POINTS.
Seriously?
Tell me your proof.
If you don't, don't accuse me.
hahas.
Don't "hide" and say.
He knows it best himself.
Because you yourself know best.
What you've said and done.
What is true and not true.
I've shown Maureen the "evidence"
But she decides to side you because you're her good friend.
I don't blame her.That is called a friend.
A real friend.
I'm not harassing Maureen anyways.
FIY. I never did "harass" her.
I knew her b4 i knew you.
And she dint "mind"

N/e ways.
Its really time to bring this love thing to a closure.

I don't want to continue this already.
If i have to break my promises i will.
If i have to go against my "goals"
I will..
Not for myself.
But for my future.
For Jeremy.
For the peoples lives that i want to help and change.
Life has much more than what you think
With the changing generations.
With improving technology.
With all the "pollution" going on.
Its not longer the same as 5 years ago.
Lets not compare a decade.

I'm grateful to Charmaine who's always been here for me.
While i was with ZW. While i was Single b4 that.
And now after my break up.

Lies..
I don't lie unless i have to.
And i wont lie to a friend.
I choose my friends.
I trust my friends.
I'll protect my friends..

To those who think they know me.
To those who think they understand.
Think again.
Till now i don't think anyone that i "friend" knows me well enough.
Apart from my happy go lucky and "friendly nice attitude"
Jy with life everyone.
Jy with your end of years.
STUDY HARDER.
Don't regret getting lousy grades.
Every exam matters.
Ever mark counts.
Every grade can get you a different standard.
Everything you do has its consequences..

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-You're like a magnet for smart, interesting people -- it helps that you're one yourself! Now is a great time to acquire new friends or love interests, so make sure you're interacting with a wide range of people!

-In every social interaction you have today, it's important for you to stay true to yourself -- it's the best way to stay comfortable in a crowd. You have an intense energy that appeals to most people, but if it intimidates other people, so what? You cannot sculpt your personality to accommodate the comfort levels of the people around you. Even if you're going to be dealing with people you need to impress, you will never get anywhere by putting on an act.

-Inspiring quotes(decisions)
A wise man makes his own decisions; an ignorant man follows the public opinion.

Listened to her favourite song.
Maroon 5 - Wont go home without you.
Sounds more like me yea?
But unfortunately you don't fit the category.
Enjoy what you have ba

After voicing all my opinions ^^ I'm going to sleep its 4.07AM now.
Good "NIGHTS" and Morning

Went back to sleep.
Managed to sleep.
hehe.
But still?

Channel your energy.
Channel your anger.
Channel your mood.
Make the best out of what you have.

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
It's a hard day for decision making, if only because you need to take extra time with each new factor that comes your way -- and it seems as if there's an endless number of them! Tomorrow brings closure

-Inspiring Quotes(Effort and Persistence)
To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.

Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from.

Love..My biggest mistake.
To love someone who does not love me.
And to give my all.
Love is a double edged sword.
And no one wants to be alone.

-Inspiring Quotes
Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.

In life if you dont move.
you're dead.
Considered dead.
In life.
There are up's and downs.
Breaking up..
Death.
Losing of something dear and precious.
But thats what life is about.
making the right decisions.
In life you might lose the person you love most.
But you yourself must know how to move on.
you're still alive.
And you deserve happiness.
least you have done something wrong that will make you regret.
Decisions comes with consequences.
Consequences leads to your future.
Regrets are mistakes.
Mistakes are Experience.
What is it that life holds?

No matter what it is you must move on..
Try.
Try harder.
Try harder AGAIN.
Keep trying..
Whats gone is gone.
least you can get it back.
Why hold back your feelings?
Let them all out.
Memories.
They're nothing but memories already.
Yes you feel the pain.(of the painful ones)
and the joy.

No matter what happens in life one must move on
Whether you make a wrong decision.
Or the right one.
At least you're moving and learning.
no matter how horrid it can get.
I want to do what i can.
And live to my dreams and wants.
I want to help people and make their life better.
At the stake of my own. I'll do my best.
Have dreams.
Accumplish them.
For yourself.
For your memories.
For the ones you love.
For their name. For everything they've done.

Everything is in your hands.
Everything can be decided and done.
It only needs YOU.

What are my limitations?
Seriously?
I'm Home from lan.
Hiaz. I don't think i'll see Leslie for quite sometimes liaos.
I'm not going to lan anymore...
Hiazz..
I realised one thing about myself today.
I'm a person who want to know my limits.
All limits.
Good or bad. I'll push myself to what i wanna do.
Even with a split second decision hoping its the right one.
Even if i know its not possible
Or people say its impossible.
But I'll still persist.
Because i know there are limits to everything.
And i wanna know what i can do..The best of what i can do.
To everything.

24 days after we've broken up..
What am i really feeling?


Todays Scorpios Horoscope
You're better informed than you have been letting on lately and you ought to be able to show your hand today -- if you want to, that is! It's a good day to get ahead of the game in some new way.

-Inspiring Quotes(Attitude)
People dont care how much you know, Until they know how much you really care.

(To me)
Even if they know how much you care.
They might not even bother.
Or so what if you care?
They might just make use of you.
Make the right friends...

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