Read my horoscope today.
It said i should make a move.
Ehhh but i scared lei.
Oh ya that means i haven read her's yet.
But i'm interested to now la.
Than again just thinking about certain stuff.
Theres nothing much to say lo.
Whats there to say in the 1st place.
Today this morning was waken up by a message.
WHEN ARE YOU WORKINNG I WANNA EAT FRENCH FRIESS.
-.-
You think what i provide food one ah?
Sorry hor.
But i'll consider i'll do what i can.
To see someone smile.
Jaslyn's not working today if i'm not wrong
I'm supposed to be going to heren to see the new outlet and eat.
But than again~.
Maybe i wont today.
Tomorrow i off.
Probably go there alone maybe i invite someone go with me.
Hmmm~ Who sia =/
Lets try x]]
Okayy i just spammed 5 people with a message who wanna go out with me.
I bet i wont really get a positive or satisfying reply.
So i'm ready to go by myself anyways.

Why do i fear.What do i really have to lose.
I'm leaving anyways.
Everything can be erased.
This tiny existance..
Time to make a move.
I've got things to ponder about.
And whats the point of doing anything jaslyn also not working today.
Eyes of doubt.
Eyes of uncertainty.
Eyes which speak how you feel.
Body actions and movements , Restlessness.
Courage to show.Thoughts to think.
Feelings to feel.

I shall go check out some stuff for now.
laterz~

Dam Screwed up lo today.(yesterday)
I sleep wake up slack around use computer i blogged about yesterday.
Dreamt about stuff den go work slack around eat maggie etc blah blah.
Den i handed in my resignation letter for real.
Hiaz i dont wish to say anything more about that.
Looked at jaslyn for real this time.
Hey what are you trying to prove lo.
Okay la i dont care what you have to say or what you're trying to prove la.
But i just wanna say that. No matter what it is.
Hope you're happy the way you're living your life.
I'm on the verge of giving up. Than again i've received another "motivation"

-Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear

Drop the fear.Handle with confidence.

Great men say, 'Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and developing goodness. In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience.'

Even if i had a good consience. Would it make everyone look at me that i'm really worth it?
I dont think so.
Time and again i've tried.
Rejected and ignored.
Trampled upon at times.
But still i pick myself up.
Hard to cope with life and stuff.
Looking for someone to understand and talk to.
Someone with a high level of trust and "understanding" with solutions.
Jeremy where are you.
But all he said was.
Why are you hesitating.
She's the one.
Wait i know you dont mind bad girls okay but please i mind. =X
Hey but shes not that bad -.-
She's changed?
I dont know. What am i afraid to try?
Is time really a factor?
Dont emo.
Hey you knew it would happen or is it just something you're saying to comfort me
Sheesh soo many things to think about and opinions.
Today Hilda was like not going to accept serena's offer - treat.
But i talked her into accepting.
Psychological trick.
Use your eyes.
Use your mind.
Use your heart.
What is love i was asked.
Dont ask me..
Because my love is different. Maybe from yours?
Maybe its the same.
But whats the meaning of love in general?
Check dictionary lo.
I dont wish to check because humans are not the same.
Words are used for description.
But words used in different ways, tones can mean DIFFERENT THINGS.
SO which point are you taking in?
Which is the REAL point thats being getting across?
Are you mis understanding the situation?

Anyways..Jaslyn LOOK AT ME 1 MORE TIME.
Is there any hope?
Are there any feelings?
I like you. But i'm afraid.
Saying it here. If you read it good or bad i dont know.
But i've nothing to hide.
Nothing to lose, Nothing ventured nothing gained.
Its not complicated.
Its just a slight necessity of sense and logic placed into it.

Face reality.
No one can protect you all the time and forever.
Loving someone.
Protecting, Sacrificing, Giving, Loving...
Is what i wanna do.
Its what i wanna do for you.
Let me make my life worth living.
Make my earnings worth giving.
Make my time and self worth sacrificing.
My strength and knowledge worth protecting you.

Rejection and failure is already part of my life.
Accept the facts.
Accept failure and dont make the same mistakes.

Falling in love can be the most blissful thing.
But yet the most dreadful and painful thing ever
What is it that we yearn?
What is it that we want.
The protection?
The company?
The trust?
Or probably just THE LUST.

You decide ba.
I'm open to opinions.
I'm open to various answers.
But i'll never change the way i am.
The way i want to be.
But if its for the better?
I'll definitely strive for it.

Today i worked full
P.S IT WAS YESTERDAY.
Just reached home.
Rather quite awhile ago. Watch my anime den come blog.
xD Cant "hold" my excitement while wanting to do something.
"Today" go work i handle orders and alot of other things cas Jessica was there.
Than Bong today super funny la he cock up so many times.
ROFL "karma" soo cute and entertaining la made me laugh like mad.
Than at night was quite enjoyable.
I did ALL ORDERS.
Cas Bong tired ma.
So i decided to HELP BY TAKING IN ALL THE ORDERS.
And sending them out SYSTEMATICALLY AND ORDERLY.
Than today tio gan for not wearing hair net and alot of other things on my mind.

I wanna quit NY le.
I seriously wanna quit.
Today i went to boon lay to eat supper.
Saw jurong point.
While going home.
Passed by Bukitbatok and gombak.
I shedded 2 or 3 tears.
And promised myself i will forget about my ex for real.
No more misery.
Its time to move on.
No more lies to cover the truth.
I'm running away from reality but not hiding from it.
Facing it from a distance and trying to be what i really can.

I fed jaslyn today.
WHAT IS SHE THINKING LARRHS.
=/
I like her.
Really. But sometimes... She really just i dont knoww.
What am i supposed to say or do.
I just want someone to hug and hold.

I'm super emo.

Today go work at 12.
Do order.
Sneeze.
After awhile i back to normal
LOL. 1 day recovery ^^
Imba body recovery rate.
cut mushrooms do orders.clean chicken.
forgot la
i did alot of shit today.
Than Kim came.
The auntie.

- Thoughts of the day.
Today kim came and talked about certain stuff. She said dont take things seriously.Probably thats the reason everything goes wrong. Why?Relationships only bring pain.Thats what she said.Like what the F- lo.Than what about now?Why do people want relationships? Lust? I'm not like that what.
-Than again. Winnies phrase came into my mind.
Not everyone is the same.Okay so if not everyone is the same. Why cant i find someone like me. OR someone whose different.In so many environments i've been to its mostly the same.Is it just my wishful thinking?Just thinking positive is not going to be good enough to successfully get someone through the day all the time. Because hope eventually wears off.Because sometimes you'll never find the answer to what you're looking for or want.Be satisfied with what you have?But if you dont have anything to begin with.Nothing to be satisfied with?Everyone wants to win.Everyone wants to have what they want.I'm giving in, I'm giving up but somehow its not appreciated.I'm not appreciated.Okay lo this is bullshit already lo.
So whats the right thing to do?WHATS WRONG AND RIGHT TO BEGIN WITH.
Whats the MEANING OF LOVE than?
WHATS YOUR MEANING OF LOVE WHEN YOU SAY IT TO YOUR SPOUSE.
-Everyone is different, Is what you want, Is love going to pull you through your hard times and miseries?Is someone ready to sacrifice?
Love.Anyone can say that word, Because its only a WORD. Speak with no action or meaning behind it and sometimes people will never know the difference because sometimes they dont see but they think of you as that person you describe yourself as.
Once again it comes down to more and more questions.More and more pain.
-Dont take anything seriously or you'll only hurt yourself.
So if you're in a relationship you should not be serious?
WTF?
I dont know le la.This world is becoming so F-ing selfish lo.
Not everyone. But most people.

Was sick yesterday Sian lo.
Than i go home early.
Nothing much to say about yesterday.
But more about how i feel about everything thats happening around me.
Hiaz so much thats going on and i dont know what to say and do.
Everyone does not think the same.
Thats the "keyline" thats been going through my head.
But theres another thing thats been bothering me
Because.
Treat others how you wan others to treat you.
Soo many things so many "problems"
What should i do or what is the right thing to do.
I'm using my "familys" computer.
AND I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO.
K i shall end here.
Take care everyone~

Sleeeepppyy.
Cant help it right? LOL
But i can do it!! MUAHAHHAHA.
Xfering data now.
Stupid computer larhs.
Hiazz.
At least i responsible wake up and prepare go work k?
I dont know what to post and say for now my mind is in a complete blank
I'll blog later or some other time.
Take carrreee~

Went to work for this FULL DAY.
So sian la.
Than sommore jaslyn today moody.
Than i help her stack chair everything .
Help her out la.
Den i talk to her like talk to wall.
jia lat lo i pek chek lo.
Hiaz.
Today got new supervisor also.
He's nice la.
Hiaz. After that i go lan.
She ask me go mac.
I refused?
HIAZ. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING LA. SERIOUSLY?
I just no face see her la.
I want go back but my body say dont go back.
Hiaz somehow now i wished i returned.
Now at lan with 2 fucktards.
lalalalalala.
DOTA TIME. Buhbye people . take care.

-Living in a world of my own.

- anyone seen the article ?

GOVERMENT MATCHMAKER TARGETING JC STUDENTS

WTF MAN!! lol!! GOVERMENT IS SO DUMB AND DESPO AND STUPID LA.

And yes i'm critisizing the goverment because of how the settle crisis are totally dumb.

They're doing their part in a way but in another.

Its totally dumb la.

So much for freedom in our country.

Geez lo whats going on around us.

Everything is rising.

And other problems are being inflicted on people.

Come on la think b4 you make a decision lei.

Could not sleep last night.
But managed to make myself turn in.
Dont know why am i blogging anyways.
Somethings i want to say now is restricted because of matters of the heart.
But what is it i'm hiding from.
hiaz so what if you like someone or afraid to say so.
Whats the real ideal meaning of love?
They say trust,forgivness,happiness.
Once again its down to so many meanings coming together.
But theres this thing thats called sacrifice.
Where's that word?
Why cant anyone do that?
Why people only care for themselves more even though they love each other?
Selfish world, Sweet people, Sometimes its like you really cant understand some stuff.
Even if you study it.
Work on it.Make it somethings just cant be understood.
The mysteries of life.
My computer harddisk too small.
Working 10.5 hrs or 9.5 hrs today.
Yay can see her today also . =x
XD
But somehow i still feel as though i'm betraying myself.
Betraying a promise i made.
Promises that never breaks.
But....What is it thats really called a promise?
Since those made to me have been brokened so many times and even turned against me.
Crap la i'm becoming more and more "open"
Sometimes its not i dont want to move on..
Its just that promises after promises.
Brokened one after another.
The only promises i cant break are those to myself.
But now its like breaking it.
But whats more important?
A promise or happiness.

Lets leave that topic for now ba..
Responsibility calls.

Hahahaha.
WACKO ME. xD
Today go work help out.
Made a few dishes.
AII YA NEXT TIME I SHOULD TAKE PHOTOS.
Darnnit.
Than its like nothing to do lo.
I slack around see what i can help i help than after that like 5 going 6 i tot i wan go hereen take a look at the new outlet.
But in the end they haven officially open yet.
Never mind lo someother time den i go.
Than just nice Jaslyn end work?
And nic dont want follow me go.
Hiaz. Den its like i slacked around NY.
Than i go toilet.
Handcap one inside got maintance.
So i go upstairs de.
Den see Jaslyn and Sharlyn.
LOL WTF?
Hahahaha den sharlyn waiting for her bf.
So "loving" sia -.-
Dont remember zhi wei clinging to me before.
Oh wells who cares.
Than in the end i pei Jaslyn walk 1 big round around bugis.
Than walk walk walk still walk all the way back to NY LOL
Geeezz~
Now waiting for Winnie to reply me.
Lalalalalala.
Today my fate super lousy sia.
The person who woke me up 2 times today.
Is JASLYN.
Told her yesterday i today off day liao this morning still msg me
Paul what time you working today.
ARRGGHHSS WAKE ME UP FROM MY BEAUTIFUL COLD WONDERFUL SLEEP.
What am i doing now i also dont know.
Tomorrow i working full.
YAY TOMORROW SOMEONE IS WORKING WITH ME hahahahah <33
But somehow i'm still hiding behind the wall.

Strangely..
Whats responsibility.
What am i supposed to really do?
What am i responsible for?
Myself?
People always tell me there are always different views and styles to do things
Its not like i dont know.
We're all different maybe we might have the same passion,same name etc.
But its not the same.
What am i saying lols.
I just cant and dont want to try and accept the fact.
What am i really living for really..
Hiazz Today is going to be boringgg.
LETS GO WORK PLACE SLACK!
woohoo~
THOUGH I'M NOT WORKIN

What to believe what to do what to listen to
So many misunderstandings going on around me
So many things happening.
What should i do
Which side should i take?
Or should i be netural as usual.
Wells usually i did take a side
Afterall its usual that people do take sides
I'm sleepy i'm turning in for now.
I'll blog later today or laters somewhere somehow somewhen.
Keep in touch.

WORK TODAY WAS CHAOTIC.
Thats all.

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