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Saturday, August 9, 20088/09/2008 03:18:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

PIGGY
Who am i to criticise people who are "fat"
LOL I'm fat tooo!!
xD
Hmm maybe?
I just sleep alot =/
Is that considered piggy enough?
Yesterday at pub took a few wacko photos
I'M NOT PHOTO MATERIAL
So please don't criticise
Wait I'm ugly to begin with x]



This PHOTO IS SO GAY.

OKAY NOW NOW
Dont say i bias never upload everyone photo espicially birthday girls one -.-
But the thing is that THEY NEVER LET ME TAKE
Or they deleted it -.-
Zzzzz My phone become their toy sia.
Anyways.
I'M GOING TO WORK EARLY TO HELP OUT.
X]
<3>

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-Today is the dawn of a new era for you. You can feel yourself shedding the last remnants of old baggage or beliefs that held you back and are eager to tackle the new challenges that await.

-Are you regretting a recent impulse buy? It's not surprising -- you're growing a lot more mature and conservative about your purchases, and now you're looking at that silly gadget, overpriced trinket or too-trendy outfit with new eyes. If you can return it, do so as soon as possible. It might not be convenient, but it will make you feel better about yourself. If you can't return it, consider giving it to a friend who may enjoy it more than you. You can address this feeling -- and fix it.







8/09/2008 05:39:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Saturday , August 9 , 2008
Party's over
NATIONAL DAY.

PUI AHH~ =x
I dont care about national day.
2x pay more impt xD
Went PARTYINGG BAB.BEE~
Dam F-ing fun.
I Drink drank drunk.
BUT I'M TOTALLY FINE.
Still can blog and think about what to post
ROFL

Struck with memories and flashbacks again.
I remembered the 1st time i went to a pub.
Zzzz She was not my gf than.
But yea..
They sold these toys.
People came in and sell stuff.
I remembered i bought that cute toy bear.
I wonder if ZW still has it =/
It was a bear that said "I LOVE YOU" when you press it.
Hiazzz Memories.

While "pubbing" i missed my ex alot.
I just wanted to hug somebody.
Kiss her etc.Blah blah.
But at the same time i dint want her.
Hiazz. Nonsense
Dont wish for anything just wanted to drown my sorrows
I did
Abit and i'm doing fine still.

Talked to Jaslyn about some stuff.
Hey shes a cool girl k?
Surprisingly shes like errr 18 days OLDER than ZW?
Hahas..
Pisces lei!!
Okay not any weird ideas etc.
But hey they said if you dont try or if you dont move on
THAN HOW WOULD YOU KNOW.
Since you dont know You must TRY.
RIGHT? LOLs
Hiaz but i scared la
But i dont want to try at the same time also
I feel like a fking kid.
Guess i need more "support"

For now i wanna go bathe N sleep
GEEZZUSS =x

5.46 am

Happy birthday JEROEN
Hiazz Winnie i'm speechless i dont know what to say about her.
But shes a great friend
I THINK.

Oh 1 more thing to add.
SHIT MAN MY PHONE DIED ON ME.
Aii ya i met
PAUL 2 HILLIE.
Zzzz sadly my fone no bat.
Good thing is .
MY HAIRSTYLE SO SUCKS heng i never take foto with him
How to anyways.
Hiaazzzz.





Friday, August 8, 20088/08/2008 02:50:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Friday , August 8 , 2008
Party!
Later got a party.
But about yesterdays events.
Went to work.
Slacked there.
Ended at 5.
Slacked around more till arnd 7+
Went to suntec.
Dint EVEN WATCH WCG LA.
Not even to say go see if i know anyone there
Geezz~
Hiazz Anyways. Than met up with Ken and jaslyn.
Zzz soo wacko
And i cut myself while working today.
Quite deep.
KEEP BLEEDING KEEP KEEP BLEEDING (in pain) =x
Drip drip drip drip drip
Zzzz than all the remainding food must throw away cas "drenched" in blood
So cool la =X lols!
Planning about jeroens Birthday plans.
Hiazzz No comments on anything else but
HOPEFULLY IT WILL BE A FUN AND FRUITFUL DAY.
Work hopefully will be GOOD
I got a new nick name
Zhu ge liang?
WTF ?! i only have theories THATS ALL
And they call me stragist professional?
Hmmm-.- Not that bad.. xD
But i dont like -.-
Hiazz goonnaa sleeepp
Working at 1 PM
OHH MEANS CAN SET ALARM LATER
woohooo!!
wait i go reset =x

HMmmmMMm
My stupid cut soo pain.
Oh i got my new phone so i can upload pics.
LETS TRRYYY.



woohooo~ IT WORKSSS
K next time i post more pics xD
I'm not photogenic.
Aka photo material

















Not bad ahh~ i hiding behind.
Both my colleagues.
Went drinking today.
Weee so fun.
I know i'm not healthy
BUT I KNOW I'M A GOOD DRINKER
Talked about virginity today.
Hiazz guess they say people should just have sex and get over it.
I dont care i'm saving mine.


Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-You can keep working and playing quite late tonight and should find that others can keep up with you only as long as you're around to motivate them. Use that great energy to start or finish something big!

-One of your newest relationships is suddenly getting very intense -- you two are starting to look like you're joined at the hip! This is a crucial time -- you want to keep the momentum going with this person, but you could be in danger of losing sight of your own identity and your own goals. So you need to use today or tomorrow as a vacation from them. It's not that you need to have less time with them, it's just that you need to have some more time alone with yourself.





Thursday, August 7, 20088/07/2008 11:13:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Thursday , August 7 , 2008
Desperation
Hiazz I'm so curious.
I want to know.
Yet i dont want to know and not supposed to know
I really wan go see my ex blog.
But i know i should not.
Zzzz but the way i see things sometimes is that shes a bit "desperate" also
Looking for love.
Yet not a bf or what so ever.
She said she dint love herself what so ever yet shes "indulging" herself
I dont know anything la
Like she said.
Guys from NS etc blah blah
Who are you to judge the "Pure" people who are not desperate due to the majority?
Thats the thing about people now adays.
If it was you. What would you do if you were classified with the mass.

Blah blah i dont know why la.
Just curiousity wants to know how is she doing wad so ever.
But somewhere inside me just doesn't allow it.
Weird weird weird.
Going to work like eerrrr NOW?

Hiazz guess i'll live this life for now.
And not let curiousity overwhelm me.

I MEAN WHAT I SAY.
I DO WHAT I COMMIT MYSELF TO.
Hate people who shoot their mouths off w/o thinking.
If its not their fault stop falsely accusing them
Put yourself IN THEIR SHOES.

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-Now is the time for you to tackle seemingly impossible tasks -- your amazing energy should at least help you make the most of them. Your ability to withstand opposition is at an all-time high!





Wednesday, August 6, 20088/06/2008 11:13:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Wednesday , August 6 , 2008
PATIENCE
Phew nearly forgot to blog
Lols .
Had alot of weird dreams last night.
WEIRD nothing psychotic or anything.
Just weird.
Dreamt of quite a few people.
Dreamt of the airport and my ex.
But it does not bother me anymore.
Actually all my dreams were about FOOD.
LOLS =x
Hungry nyaa.
Sleeping also dream of food.
Sure fat one.
Actually suddenly never go work i DREADED TO GO WORK SIA.
So bored -.-
Sleep sleep sleep.
Watch gundam seed.
Download songs
Sat infront of the computer with 91.3 webbie on.
Download all those songs LOL.
Weirdo -.-
Anyways got a few nice ones x]
Happy liaos.
WAITING FOR JAS TO ONLINE.
Soooo loonngg doubt she'll come online.
=/
Msg her nvr reply de.
Lalala nvr minds she neeeds her beauty sleep.

BORRRINNNGGG.
Hiazz cant wait for my pay.
I WANNA BUY A LAPTOP AND PSP AND NEW BICYCLE
Woohooo~ cant wait =/

AND OMG JAS JUST CAME ONLINE

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-It's a great day for brainstorming -- you need to develop more ideas and see what comes of them and your family or coworkers are in the right frame of mind to get creative. Lead the way!

-In order to reduce the amount of stress in your life, you need to hand things over to someone you trust. Delegate some of your tasks at work or at home to another person who could use the experience. You can't worry about adding stress to their life by doing so -- right now you should just be concerned about creating a few calmer, quiet moments in your own day. Deciding what tasks to give to which people won't be too hard -- you know who you can count on.





Tuesday, August 5, 20088/05/2008 11:26:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

OFFICIALLY OVER.
Eh apperantely someone said she will never read my blog again?
Whatever like duhh?
I accuse people sia -.-
Wowded.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH another great accusation by someone.
Good lo i'm glad you're really saying such stuff lei.
Seriously
Dont worry i'll remove your link off my blog and stuff.
Blehs sometimes read already wanna cry.
Now i read wanna puke.
Please la hor.
Who accusing who now.
I now not even flirting.
Not even ACCEPTING girls who flirt with me
ROFL people say i'm a fucking weirdo
Because i dont want to.
I dont even care what you have to say.
Thinking about you
Caring about you.
Guess you wont even need my care or concerns.
I take back my words.
I take back all my promises.
I'm officially over you
You're someone not even worth spending that 2 mins looking at ur blog to see how "wonderful" your day was.
My days are getting better
Today was not bad at all~
I was like totally over her la!
B4 i even saw her blog.
Hmmm must be my "concentration" level going up.
Responsibility level.
Wah biang today took a picture of a girl
At 1st i glace look okay.
Than i go back work
Than now i see
WAH BIANG THE MAKE UP
make her look like ghost LOL.
DELETED HER PICTUREEEE.
Later people get wrong idea -.-
hahahahahs.
Actually she not bad lei.
But sorry i'll not make a move.
Neither will i accept anyone.

Eh 1 more thing hor ZW wan accuse me can just like scribble it all over my blog and what so ever.
Because my FRIENDS know what i did.
Who i am.
What i do and dont.
You can say what you want.
Leslie is my biggest "witness"
AFTER EVERYTHING.
He's the one who knows what i did.
What i DID FOR YOU.
So i'm super confident of my actions.
You can continue to hide and say what you want.
Because now i dont even think about you.

I'll remove all your stuff later.
Pictures.
Numbers.
Memories.(if thats possible)LOL
Your shirt you gave me
Everything.





8/05/2008 03:35:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Tuesday , August 5 , 2008
Sadness
Its alright to cry when you feel like it
thats why people cry.
Not for attention
Not because they "want to"
Because they feel so sad.
In pain.
Demoralised.
Fake tears are seriously not appreciated.
I've too many sorrowful dreams
Too many unfulfillable dreams.
but..
"the me now, that's right here, is everything"
Nothing else matters.
Was thinking about what ZW said yesterday.
Time does heal these painful wounds.
Its forgotten over time.
Whether you want to or not.
Its all up to you
Yes you remember but the pain gradually goes
Dont let impatience get in your way.
As theres no certainty in everything
Dont let impatience affect you
Find a way.

There's no point waiting.
No point looking back and thinking about her.
Shes not who i though she was.
Maybe i knew long ago she was not the one.
But i insisted.
Because of my dreams.
Of what i wanted.
I realise that life has much more to offer.
Yes look around you appreciate those around you
Friends or not friends people who are smiling.
Happiness sense them.
No point drifting into my imaginary land.
Its all over and done.
And she was not the one.
What more can i tell myself?

Time "flys"
My god uncle child is 4 months old already.
Today is... 5th august..
Started on 26th feb
Ended dont know when.
108 days.
Dont wanna count.
I lost my phone
Lost my pictures.
Lost my memories of somethings
But somethings will never change.
But things change.
Flashbacks will happen.
But now is now.
The past the future.
Now is a gift.thats why its called PRESENT.
May i accept this " gift "
This time, This second,everything thats happening.
Be happy..As its will be something you'll never get back.
Experience sadness.experience everything.
Than you'll understand and know
Depression.
Is something thats like a deep pit hard to climb out off.
Its dark and slippery
You fall back down.
But after time its filled with rain and you float out of it.
Heartbreaks..
Heartpains.
Love.
Double edged sword.
Appreciate what you have now.
that's all about life.

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-Put off any inessential actions for a bit longer, as you need to think things through first. Your mental energy is just right for plotting and planning, so you should see a definite advantage in the short term.

-Today you are standing on a firm foundation of accurate awareness: You just learned some critical information. You know the real deal, and nothing anyone else will say to you can change your mind. This level of conviction will help you persevere through long, boring meetings and help you handle people who think they know it all. It's also going to help you see certain people in a much clearer light. There has been a lot of fast talking going on, and not a lot of progress.





Monday, August 4, 20088/04/2008 11:19:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Contradiction
Zhiwei "Wrote" about me again.
Its not 'POSTING' as she "claims"
Whateverr~ She wont see this anyways.
She wont even bother!

-
memories blurring.. feels lyk water running over a sieve.. is dis a gd thing? nth will be left of u after few more mths... confused as to keep all dis memories or juz let it all slip away.. pics, deleted. hp num, deleted. all msges, deleted. dun even blog abt u anymore, unless u wanna count dis one.

Great yea?
Contradicting statements
One after another.
How can i forget my 1st relationship.
How can i forget all the sweet things.
Yayaya those are not lies.
Those are just your 'CONFUSION'
Like how you treated me in the relationship
thanks alot ah~
Everything that you've said and done.
This is verbal proof now lo.

Anyways. Not gonna bitch about you.
Not so free to do so
And no i'm not dao .
I just am sooo not interested to waste anymore time on this shit.
You finally "showed" your "true colours"
Maybe you're just confused as usual DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU SAYING.
But infact the people who do really read will know.
Eyecandy etc.
Please i could feel you drifting and stuff and you push the blame to me
V smart hor.
Blah blah blah (OMG WHAT AM I SAYING) LOLS

Work today was stupid.
Go there.
Cut lettuce, Prepare potato skin and "spudnik"
- Chicken baccon corn mayo
Than order come like siao
Crazy people lols
Order come 1 after another lo.
I finish 1 order
Wan slack another order come
WTF?
Cannot all come one shot?
Rofl.
Realised abit more about the people i'm working with.
The girls there are errr.....
No COMMENTS PLEASE.
Thank you x]
Working tml COLDSIDE.
ICECREAM DRINKS AND FLUIDS.
Sianzz~ STUPID LESLIE HAVEN CALL ME
GOING LAN ANNOT STUPID IDIOT!!

Lalala I'm getting over this shit already soo cold recently.
So friggin cold.
Heartless.
Whheeee I'M ME.
Good luck with life ZW.
Thanks for trashing mine up..






8/04/2008 02:58:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Monday , August 4th , 2008
Bored as usual.
I actually asked to "quit" my job.
Strangely but true.
Health wise i dont think its really quite my stuff espicially morning shifts.
WTF Fred-.-
I was serious when i was talking about not feeling good in the morning.
Thats why when i work in my other places in the morning i find the slackiest thing to do.
I just stand there.
Nothing else.
Do you think i'll make excuses?
Till now i claim responsibility for everything that i do.
Have i said no?
Anyways anyone can say what they want about me.
I dont really care much.
Went to my ex friendster..
Saw the picture i took of her.
Saw the testi i sent her..
Memories.
Painful memories are no longer painful
I just look at her picture..
And say this was the girl who made a fool out of me.
I feel numb -.-
I feel sad.
Lonely.
Bored.
But what more can i say or do?
Find friends.
Friends...
Hiazz.. I rather be alone ..
In times like this i just stone dont need go out
Save money.
No one messages me.
No one says hey paul wanna go out
I dont want to be a burdens in peoples lives.
So i'll make it..
Just standing on my own.

Emo? dont think so.
I say this is the best way for me to describe how much i CARE.
Irritating?
Extra."kaypo"?

Yea i rather not be.

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-You and your friends are working together to do something cool and you feel absolutely great about the collaboration In fact, you may decide to formalize the arrangement to do more of the same in the future.

-
Someone you care about has been acting extra sensitive lately -- taking everything the wrong way, assuming the worst, and getting upset over nothing. You have been patient with them, but today your patience might be starting to run out. This means that you run the risk of snapping at them if they say the wrong thing, today, which will probably only send them further down that emotional spiral. So it's wisest to get your distance from them until they're back to their old self.





Sunday, August 3, 20088/03/2008 11:18:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Flashbacks.
Today went work early morning.
Was slightly late.
Never mind.
Work already..
Than 3.30 break till 6 start work.
Bought lunch for my colleagues.
Just in case i decide to just leave.
Went to library.
STUPID LA.
MY stupid bag so big cannot go inside.
Lols. Hiazz never mind lo.
I just loitered around
Than when i went to the "basement" of the library.
I remembered alot of things -.-
I remembered sylvie...
Her perfume smell.
The book she read.
And where she took it from.
OMG LAAA flashbaccks -.-
Thats why i'm super "memoriable"
Flooded with memories..
Decided not to stay at the library..
Waste of time and dint want to remember anything else.
Went back to work place and slacked arnd.
At night was super funny and stupid -.-
Played around so much
Everyone laugh like mad.
But it was worth it la.
Everyone was happy and entertained.
And end of day WTF THE NEW GUY SAID I WAS 26 YEARS OLD?
WTF MAN I'm Not THAT OLD .
T_T i'm only 17.
Going 18 x]
Zzzz But i'm glad people look at me as a "matured" person.
O.0?
I so playful still = mature?
Geezzz =/
TMR i off! But than they call me go back work
What to do.. Zzz life is like that right?
Nvm see how x]
JASMINEE where arree yoouu~~.

Oh and i've got a NEW PHONE. N78
Wacko stupid phone.
So sensitive.
Off-ed the "TOUCH PAD"

Overall today was emo,fun,Boring -.-
borrinnggg.





8/03/2008 09:46:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Hehe i woke up on time xD
Actually i woke up super early la.
Zzzz guess my will to do something is still super strong.
Guess thats called my persistance.
Its so overpowering -.-
Zzzz and that might be my
"Strenght"
Yet my biggest weakness
Cant blog le
JUST SAYING GOOD MORNING EVERYONE.
Laterrzz~





8/03/2008 01:26:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone

Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.

Sunday , August 3 , 2008
Mindwar.
I've been at a mind war for a long time.
Long time ago.
Since when i dont even remember.
It hurts.
That insecure feeling that you dont know what to do.
When you make a decision you feel that you might regret it for your life or something.
Love, I cherish that person but i'm always let down - Quoted from SOMEONE.
I wont say anything about that...
Cherishing = love?
Love means what?
Time and again. That question is asked
Time and again people get hurt.
Time and again...
Working at 1030 cant sleep
Miss my phone arghs., -.- Scared i cant wake up.
When that time comes than say ba.
Gazes at stars.
thinks about ZW.
EyeCandy and stuff. Seeing that makes my heart break.
Seeing that makes me feel so...
The person who made my world.
Who made me feel wanted for once.
Who i thought understood and loved me "let me down"
Its me who "forced" her right?

I dont make accusations which i doubt.
I accuse and if i do wrongly i apologise.
What is it that i'm looking for
What is it that i want.

Looking and judging people.
Spreading rumours.
And putting innocent people in a spot.
Ignoring them when they need help the most.
And rubbing salt in their wounds.
Who are you to say anything if you dont even put yourself in their shoes.
And still to say you understand?
What do you really know?
Advice.is given.
Its accepted and used.
Its accepted but hard to change.
Its forgotten and used against the person who gave it.
Life is just unfair.
The talented.
The fortuante.
The rich have the upper hand.
Human rights and ETC.
All these were made by "humans"
I dont know what am i angry about now -.-
Just feel someone somewhere is being violated.
Someone is being ill treated.
And i'm powerless to help.

I'm glad i've opened my eyes.
I'm glad i've taken a step forward.
I want to move.
MOVE.
I'm not going to watch things happen.
I'm going to make things happen.

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-You're good at keeping secrets and today brings a doozy! You may not be totally sure what to do about it, but waiting and seeing should be the best course of action. It may be pretty funny, actually!

-A friend is acting like they are doing you a favor by inviting you along somewhere -- they seem intent on making you feel unwelcome, and it's working. There is some mean game playing going on here, and the only way you can get out of it is to say 'no.' Even if you really want to go, it's just not worth it if you have to feel in debt to them the entire time. When a friend starts making you feel bad about yourself, it's time to rethink whether or not they should be your friend.

Friends...
What are friends.
Where to find friends?
Who are your real friends.
How do you know who are your true friends.
When would you know if your friend is really your friend or not.

Believe in yourself.
Than believe in your friend.









Ravey has already moved on

soo he'll no longer use this blog x]]

You're welcomed back

into my life anytime.

Moving on without you

Loner in love



Loner in love.

Rave
A stupid kid.
17.years.old
--.11.1990
Job.Cook/Odd Jobs.
Horoscope.Scorpio


Wants-

PSP
New Bag
My long hair again T_T
New phone.N78!
Labtop.
Leave house n live on my own.
A good job
Go back to school
Want to become a Psychologist
A new bicycle
"motorTransport"

Find a soul mate after i'm capable...
I'm not despo like said.
(people in serious relationships want to provide and protect their loved ones)

Emo-tic

Living in a non-realistic world
Of my own.
Having alot of dreams
And seriously wish to carry them out
But for now i just wanna take 1 step at a time.
So bring on the challenges.
Take situations into your own hands
Because whatever has happened in the past is nothing more than memories
I can make things happen.
So i'll make it through......
A L O N E.


Talk to me x]


Those Days

June 15, 2008
June 22, 2008
June 29, 2008
July 6, 2008
July 13, 2008
July 20, 2008
July 27, 2008
August 3, 2008
August 10, 2008
August 17, 2008
August 24, 2008
August 31, 2008
September 7, 2008
September 14, 2008
September 21, 2008
December 20, 2009

Extras

My Thoughts
My Extras

http://null-boi.blogspot.com/

On Crap N some histroy
Just some extra feel over there =x