Saturday, July 5, 20087/05/2008 02:49:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Saturday , June July 05 , 2008
Lonely?
Arghs why you all must go out today.
Stupidd!!
Why i workkiinn!.
I wanna go movies too!!>< Nvr minds =/
Zzzz.
Soo nice wake up receive so many caring messages.
Sent so many last night.
LOLS =]
Zzz stupid Vick
Why everyone around me talking about relationships suddenly.
-.-
All single friends talking about relationship xcept some.
Type and feelings?
Hes not my type but i like him..
Hiaz. I don't know how to explain la.
I'm outdated.
I'm simple and easily influenced.
I'll change for anyone.NIGHTPOST (11.48pm)
Its sunday already
Zzzz
I'm working 12-1030 later
OMFG I'm still up?
Actually i'm @ L.A.N
I dint want to play de lorhs.
STUPID LESLIE.
But i've to blame myself for falling into temptation
Time and again..
Next time I wont even step into a L.A.N shop.
Today at work so bo liao.
Boring nya.
Work..
For myself.
Live
For the proof of your living existence
(my existance does not matter)
Leslie is cold.
I'm not o.0
I'M COLD BLOODED!
He told me about a girl 16 years old.
Like a prostitute.
Went for operations etc.
Zzzz
What is this world becoming?....
What am i doing?
What cant i do anything?
To change everyhone around me
What have i done?
I'm trying.
But i'm failing...
I cant help anyone.
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
Ego conflict could rock your world today , though you might not take part yourself. Watch out for the signs of unchecked self-absorption and try to make sure that the worst of it is contained.
-Inspiring Quotes(decisions)
It's not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are.
Friday, July 4, 20087/04/2008 06:27:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Friday , June July 04 , 2008
Computer spoiled.
Zzzz tried something today extracting and Fixing.
In the end made nothing more than a mess at home LOL
Home.
Zzzz
Dint want to go back.
Don't want to go back anyways.
Leslie and his ex back already..
His ex ask him back..
Whats this feeling?
Jealousy?
Loneliness?
Was thinking about my previous post.
What if she wants me back?
Would i say NO?
I want to say yes.
But I'm saying no..
What is it that?
My hand phone bat dead i don't remember what i said.
At Lan Shop now.
Pondering about what i want.
But to no avail.
I've no idea at all.
And again. I'm still being my lonely self.
I waited for Leslie at his KFC for 6 hrs? More ? Less?
I dont know.
I've got time.
And if there's someone i love?
I'll wait
Weeks.
Months.
And YEARS.
If that person is true.
I'll post again..
Soon.
Hopefully later or tomorrow..
Later.
AFTERNOON POST (2.33pm)
Computer Fixed!!
Woohoo.
i fixed back to stupid computer.
The other 2 is really spoil was extracting parts.
zzz stupidity..
Cant do anything sia.
Slept for like errr 8+ till now?
6 hours.
Leslie!!
YOU CANNOT 2 TIME AH.
lols..
Please make the right decisions...
You might have feelings for both.
But whats right?
If you were the one being 2 timed
How would you feel?
Remain as friends.
If you don't want to lose anything/anyone.
I dint wanna lose ZW.
But...
Sometimes..
Things go beyond your control...
Esp when shes soo stubborn.
And all the blame comes to me.
Ya fine i accept all the blame.
I accept the fault.
But you make me seem like the one that's the bad one.
ME?
You sure?
Wheres your proof?
Oh wells i don't need any from you.
I've got all the backing i need already.
Who cares LOL.
I'm getting along fine now.
BUT STUPID LESLIE KEEP ASK ME GO LAN.
KNS.
Spend money like water.
I say don't want go liao.
Zzzzz
Now he at bugis with a FRIEND.
Asking me go down ?
I don't know...
Working at 6 later..
Hehe once again thanks to all who're here for me.
With me.
By me.
And those who read thy pathetic blog.
You've got my "blessings" ^^
NIGHTPOST (11.48pm)
Finally home.
Work today was extremely..
Fun?Boring?
But inside me.
Felt totally empty.
That emptiness...
Loneliness
Because i saw someone from JJC.
Dressed like her.
Haha.
But I'm fine alone.
LESLIE i say 1st hor you better NOT 2 TIME.
You fucking idiot.
Why cant i get the right girls and attention.
All the good girls either don't like me or are already taken or something.
Am i unlucky?
Or is this my fate?
Or what is it that I'm lacking?
Love is blind..
My existence is...
I wish i dint care or love so much.
Why am i soo old fashion.
So out dated.
People don't care but why do I?
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
Your supervisor at work -- or teacher, or landlord or some other authority figure -- is placing obstacles between you and your desires. You should drop everything and focus on this issue!
-Inspiring Quotes(strenght)
The strongest among the weak is the one who doesn't forget his weaknesses.
Thursday, July 3, 20087/03/2008 11:26:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Thursday , June July 03 , 2008
Dreamed
Last night i dreamed about Zhi Wei.
Hmmm seems pretty normal?
But she was asking for a 2nd chance?
Weird dream zzzz.
And i said no o.0.
I don't know.Maybe its just me that knows its not possible
Or i don't want to go through this again.
But than when i woke up
I wondered if that really happened.
When i begged her for a chance.
If she begs me?
What would i do?
But that wont happen in this life anyways.
Lols.
Talked to maureen about her.
Shes sturbbon.
Yea even all her friends know that.
I'm patient and okay to give and wait.
But not this time.
I love theories.
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
Any issues you face that require deep thought are easier to pin down today. Your mind is sharp and focused and you should have all or most of the facts you need to make a wise judgment
-Inspiring Quotes(Decisions)
It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
Wednesday, July 2, 20087/02/2008 10:47:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Wednesday , June July 02 , 2008
Sianzations.
Hiaz lol.
Whats there to do nya.
At home nth to do de...
Wan go find 2ND job liaos..
Probably something with a higher pay and nearer?
zzzz
Hiaz.
True.
As time passes.
As you stand alone.
When you're on your own.
There's nothing much to say because life becomes a cycle again.
With nothing much to say.
But don't let this bring you down!.
Look at it in a positive way.
At least you're living life.
And you're better off than most others from different countries.
So don't take things for granted.
NIGHTPOST(7.28)
After work went down to lan and arcade as usual.
Stoned there.
Seriously?
I dint know what to do.
Dint want to go home.
ZOMG i downloaded audition o.0
LOL cas leslie and my god sis Jac say can find alot of girls there , =x
Zzzz my computer too laggy got to press so early.
Watched POT (prince of tennis)
To waste my time away.
What more can i do right?
Talked to jasmine and sylvie till about 2am den sleep.
Super boring nya.
Today's Scorpios Horoscope
You can rely on your intuition even more than usual today -- you're in touch with other people's feelings and your hunches should generally prove correct in the long run. Your mood should be great!
-Inspiring quotes(wisdom)
The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.
Tuesday, July 1, 20087/01/2008 11:50:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
End of The day.
Today was fun xDD.
Omfg being positive for a change.
Who cares about the past.
Who careesss
LALALA. =x
Actually i still do.
Stupid Alison keep talking about suicide
LOLS><
I wont kill myself.
Its stupid.
But I'll SACRIFICE if there's a need to.
Made more friends at my work place.
ITS COOL.
Everyone theres so friendly o.0
Hahas.
He ask if i got gf..
Den i said i just broke off.
He said.
Dont worry!!
LIFE IS FULL OF!!
Life...
O.o!
Lolz.
retardness.
Hiaz.
Its all "heavens will"
Everything is fated.
Its not like you cant find another one.
But even if you do.
They're not the same.
No one is ever the same.
But you might find someone as good
Someone better?
Or worse?
Or no one at all.
Depends on your luck/Fate.
But that's life right?
7/01/2008 02:17:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Thoughts
Been thinking about what Maureen said.
About ZhiWei.
About herself.
I'm not harassing anyone am i?
Just be frank i hate people who hide things.
Females.
Males?
Whats the big difference?
Apart from genes and looks and stuff?
They're also human.
With instints.
MOMS.DADS.
Hmmm... Seriously.
Its not depending on the sex.
Its on your point of view.
Females virginity important?
Guys are not?
What do guys have to lose anyways right?
Don't let this moment of pleasure.
This moment of "love"
Get you on the wrong momentum of life
If you do it now.
If you break up.
And your spouse asks you.
You're going to lie?
Tell the truth?
Or accept the fact or just leave it?
Looking for true love.
People around us are not ready for true love.
They've not reach the stage of maturity yet.
What do they know about life down the road?
Living on your own.
Earning your own living.
Paying ALL THE BILLS?
Working daily.
Being there for one another at the end of the day?
Few knows.
Because they can always fall back on your family.
You can sacrifice some of your wants and just stay at home and slack.
But what if you cant?
What if one day you're thrown out and not allowed back home?
How are you going to start?
With no basic income.
And no where to stay.
Just spent 10 minutes of my time that I'll never get back.
Watching a stupid DotA show.
Waste of time.
Lousier player den me.
But so what if I'm good?
So what?
Gaming is just to waste time away.
Fun yes. Noob can become pro.
but being obsessed with winning?
This is the world now.
The selfish world.
The world which few thinks of the future because they're so happy with what the have now.
What are you going to do once you're on your own?
Your future. Your life.
Think about life..
1 year 365 days.
When you going to get married?
How long a relationship you gonna take?
If each of your relationships lasts 3 months?
4 relationships a year?
If you're 18 this year.
you wanna get married at 28?
10 years. 40 girls.
The world has millions of girls.
You sure that's the right one?
Regrets..
Life is full of regrets.
But people around us try to be happy.
Live positive.
Try if you cant.
Because every minute you spend now.
Even reading or slacking or sleeping.
Is a second. Its time you'll never get back.
Start moving
Start acting.
There's nothing wrong with moving faster.
Maturing faster.
Thinking ahead.
So whats it in life that's awaiting?
You'll never know if you do nothing about it.
What would you do if everything was taken from you?
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7/01/2008 11:46:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Tuesday, July 01 , 08
Frustration
After our break up.
I realised shes carrying on with life without a problem.
Yea. Thats good for her.
But to me that goes to show how much i meant to her.
How much she loved me.
That without me shes also capable.
Fine.
Its just me.
I'm angry with myself.
I can't change anything.
I can't make anything better.
I'm a failure.
As i said before.
Sometimes even if you give your all.
Everything.
You wont be able to change anything.
I'm sad, Yet angry?
I dont know .
Zzzz i was never good with feelings.
Sighs.
Guess people dont care much about relationships now adays?
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
It's always a good idea to read the fine print, of course, but on a day like today, it's utter madness to ignore it! Don't worry about getting taken -- it's just that the details might not be entirely to your liking.
Monday, June 30, 20086/30/2008 11:05:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
I'm not alone.
Went to find Leslie.
Find his girlfriend to be.
Maybe?
Maybe not.
Than they saw me.
Said i was scary?
Lols. I'm scary?
I may look scary?
Sound scary?
But I'm not scary ...
I seriously hate getting doubt.
Getting accused wrongly
Than i saw Alvin's sister..
Jessie.
She was a giver as well.
Giving in to her boyfriend.
Always giving in.
Just like me.
Her boyfriend and her was about to break up.(she felt so)
Going 6 months soon next month.
But they're on the verge of breaking up.
She does not know what she wants.
Feeling like asking her to give him up.
Instead of suffering like me.
Than i realised.
I'm not the only one that's having problem with life.
But still its regrets.
Our life regrets.
But if she can get along well.
So i can i.
I can do it.
I'm already doing so.
Just memories.
Painful memories.
Talked to Leslie and the rest.
About Zhi Wei.
But so what?
Nothing is going to change.
6/30/2008 08:09:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Yesterday.
Initially was to pei Ming Hui go find some guy?
In Bukit Batok.
But at like 10+ P.M on Sat night
I recieve a call back from work to go work o.0
Yay.
So total change of plans.
Went to work.
Zomg la.
I was late -.-
Woke up at like 1145.
Dint care!><
Took my time bathe and change and went to work.
LOL reach at like 1230 flat. work till 5.
Than stupid Leslie call me go LAN.
Last min.
AGAIN.
I went.
Than he say want taunt..
Dint want to.
But still stayed.
At around 10+ i went home bathe.
And chiong back go LAN shop o.0.
I'm broke. I don't wanna spend money already.
Today last day i going LAN.
Got to stick to my word already.
Later going meet him again for round 2 .
He meeting a girl who just got together with a guy for a few days.
And wan jio her.
Hiaz.
That's why i thought of her.
Stupid la.
But its alright I'll face the facts.
I'll face reality and accept it.
Accept it for what its like.
And make do.
Zhi Wei if you ever read this.
Take care.
I never wanted or want to hurt you.
I never intended to let you shed another tear.
I told you that at Maureen's chalet.
I wanted you to be happy.
I'm sorry for everything.
6/30/2008 07:52:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Monday , June 30 , 2008
Haunted.
Leslie said he found someone else.
Could not stop thinking about HER again.
Shit.
The times i did go down to find her after her school.
Its not painful already.
Maybe it is abit.
Just the memories.
The painful memories.
These memories that haunt me.
Memories that always remain with me.
I'm good with remembering.
But after you left me my memory is only filled with you.
Not anything else.
All the messages you sent me.
You know it best you sent them.
I'm confused with love and words.
Ya..
You're right.
Anyone can say those words.
But do you mean what you say?
I did .
You DINT.
I don't know.
How you really felt and stuff.
I could only assume.
Yes you were right about 1 thing.
If you dint accept me.
I would have tried to find another girl.
I wanted to know love.
How much i can give.
How much i can love.
But i think the same thing would happen eventually.
Like what happen to us.
Yes if you say that.
I would have loved them as much as you.
Maybe more?
Maybe less?
Love is about trust..
About Prioritising
Soo whats love?
Whats my love?
Why love?
Why do i love?
Why do i love GIVING?
Why do i care?
What have you given me during our relationship?
Time?
Lust?
I don't know.
Within the times i was thinking.
I remember the promises.
I wanted to live with you till about 40.
Tour the world.
Jump of a building together.
Anything would be fine as long as its with you.
That's how much i love you.
I would love you even if you stab me with a knife.
And give my life up.
These memories haunt me over and over again.
Not in my daily life.
But in my dreams.
My fake reality.
Which seems so real.
Jeremy said.
Unsure people, Unloved people
Are selfish people.
Unless other wise they would be totally opposite.
Because they either know what they want or not.
So those who don't know what they want.
Want everything.
And they hide when they don't know what they've done.
Curiosity can kill the cat.
It can kill you.
Why do i love the less "fortunate"
Those who are unloved.
Those who have problems?
Because i want them to be loved.
Because i know whats it like to be without love.
Love is not physical.
Its a feeling.
A happy feeling.
A feeling that you would do anything thing for that person.
Friend love.
Love love.
Pity love.
Family love.
How can you tell?
I don't blame anyone..
Its just me..
I cant live up to my expectations.
Toady's Scorpio Horoscope.
Money issues are worrying you a bit, especially if other people are involved. You can't control them directly, of course, but you may be able to influence their behavior in subtler ways
Wtf, Zzz stupid horoscope so zhun. lol. Talk about money than now say money problems.I'll keep that in mind...
June 29Th Scorpio Horoscope.
Someone takes a stand against your position, but in the long run, it should only strengthen your hand. As long as you avoid overreacting, everything should work out for the best for you.
