Guess sometimes its better that nobody knows..
But sometimes is it a good thing or not..
I dont know.
What should i really do.
Thats the question.
Why am i afraid.
Thats the question i always ask myself.
I'm just scared of losing my "posessions"
But what do i poess in the 1st place.
Should i try?
I really feel like giving it a shot la.
But somehow i dont want to.
If i really do alot of things are gonna change..
ALOT.
Decisions decisions..
I'm totally wacked out right now.
depressed people should not drink because they've really v little self control.
I nearly lost myself a few times.
Head spinning.

What is it i want...
What is it that i should do..
Heart matters? Use head or brain?
follow ur feelings..
Follow ur heart .
Because whats most important is happiness?
BLEHS WHAT BULLSHIT AM I SAYING.
I'm too tired to think.
LATERS.

The weirdest thing is that i hope no one who i sent that msg to reads my blog.
Oh wells even if you all ask around also might not be you all.
HAHAHAHA.
I even msged the girl i like about it sia..
Zzzz Somehow i feel that i should just leave things as they are.
Lets just be friends lols.
-"if i like someone but i feel i cant provide for her or i feel that i cant be a good enough guy for her..What should i do?"

Than be friends lo.
KNS I ASK ALL MY FRIENDS AH.
All say what not expert or dont know or just try lo.
NYAA. WHAT KINDA "ADVICE" IS THAT MAN!
Dreamt about alot of weird things last night.
Nothing weird about that though. zzz.
Winning.Losing.Whats most impt.
Your pride?Or you play for fun.
Ahh dont care la.
I dont want to say anything else for now.
I'm like super Deadlike now.
I'm gonna settle my psp once and for all.~

-POSTED ON 16TH AUGUST. 1.16am.
"TODAYS SCORPIOS HOROSCOPE.
-You're feeling a little bored with the same old routines and look -- so see if you can mix them all up somewhat! Try not to go overboard, or you may land in hot water with someone who's stuck in the past.

-People might have a tough time agreeing with you about what is the right way to go about doing things -- but the reasons they are resisting your solutions might have less to do with their quality and more to do with their own ego. Their insecurities are leading to conflict right now, so don't take them seriously. If you have faith in your strategy and ideas, then you should stand behind them. Go off on your own if you have to -- there comes a time when you have to make a stand.

Gave somethings some thoughts.
Eh why do i even need a gf lo.
Zzzz than i considered so many things.Hiaz..
So depressing.
Thinking about my ex.
Suddenly there was this line that ran through my head alot of times.
You can have your heart back.
You can take everything back.
My heart...My feelings..
Hiazz Dont know la.
Walked home from lan.
1hrs 20 mins.
Nt that bad ba.Good exercise.
Going to sleep b4 my family wakes up.
I'll post later..
Probably...

Thought about dying..
Would people care?
Would they want to know more about me?
If i really love this person what am i doing -.-
What should i do..
Actually i think its just a crush ba.
But if you never try you never know right?
But if i try... Is it worth the shot?
Sometimes i just wonder time and again.
Thought about charmaine. Is she really the one?
Sometimes the more options there are the more questionable things can get.
And when there are too many questions everything goes haywire and crazy.
What are the answers to all these questions.
No matter what happens.
Its all your own decision.
YOU DECIDE and You face your consequences.
When you're stuck and dont know where to walk to.
Just walk.
If you go right thats good.
But if you go wrong..
Than face it and go in the right direction.
Time wont wait for you.
But sometimes we're caught in this decision.
Because is this regret too big for me to handle..
Thoughts,Arugments,Mindsets,Confusion,Feelings,Doubt ARGHS EVERYTHING LA.

I need to reformat my mind...

Today nothing happened
Nothing decisive to say
Nothing to do.
Now at lan shop
Dont wanna post.
But posting because its something i wanna do everyday.
Itsss sooo borringggg.

DOTAA HERE I COMEEE ~~

-I'LL POST HOROSCOPE SOME OTHER TIME ^^

Hiazz. Ponder about somethings and questioned myself again.
Put myself in so many situations and feelings.
Finally got the right tune of life.
Its not to love.
Forget it lets just be friends la right?
Least you think you want me too =x
LOLS.
I doubt la who wants me to begin with.
I'm a drop out blah blah blah .
ZZZZZ
But its alright i accept that fact.
But its better than people who are lost in life.
At least i'm making progress and stuff.
Sleep sleep sleep save money and slack.
Sooo "FUN!"
Okay la i dont wan crap liao la no point -.-
Sianzzz~ Now dont know wan do wad.
Msn got problem.
Internet programmes loading so slowly
Everything is cocking up.
Like kana stuck sia.
But with willpower, determination and other alternatives
I can find a way around "all" problems.
Push yourself.Push yourself to your limits and break them.

Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-Someone important is quite receptive to your ideas today, so see if you can push things just a little bit further. You may want to ask for a raise, make travel plans or propose an enormous change.

-Your feelings about your career path have been fairly ambivalent lately, but when you get a small taste of power early on today, you will finally see where you want things to go. Your ambition is waking up, and it's going to be hungry for new challenges and opportunities! When you see a chance to get out there and start making things happen, you should put everything else aside and hop to it. Reschedule social plans if need be -- your friends will understand.

WTF LO.
I today going home from lan.
I took 111 den i oversleep.
I woke up.Than i alighted cross road to opposite side and waited for any bus.
Than this blind guy alighted lei.
Than got 3 people standing beside him.
He said excuse me
NO ONE CARED LEI.
WTF RIGHT?
Than sommore i sitting down blasting my music as usual i saw.
Than i go help him.
Get on same bus as him 970.
Than i let him have the last sit on the bus.
No space i move aside.
Than hor this stupid auntie.
Wan alight lei.
Den 1st she shove me aside lei.
I sleepy how i know sia i never even see.
Than she : Oi move can?
Than i diao her.She holding that little kids hand
Than i aii ya dont find trouble la.
I moved aside.
Stupid auntie got kid already still dye her hair BRIGHT RED.
Think what sia.
WTF lo be kind helpful considerate
And still tio gan by people sia.
WOW.
Seriously?
I gave it a 3 point of viewpoint.
And i "concluded" it was not "my fault"
Zzzzz Whatever la i cant be bothered.
I'm glad i helped that blind person but i'm super pissed with inconsiderate F people like those stupid old aunties and F-tards that think they're some big F.

I'm gonna SLEEEP.
GOODAA NIGHTT / mORNING.

Today power la.
I wake set alarm
Tell my sister wake me up at 1030.
Den i go back sleep.
Den b4 alarm ring.
i woke up again.
Den i remember today i never work hor.
ARGGHSS.
LOL.
Den i remove alarm and go back sleep.
Den i woke up at like 4PM.
Wake up liao use computer watch bleach and naruto.
Than i see my phone messages.
See jaslyn msg dont know wan delete or not.
Den suddenly she call me
OMFGG I WAS TOTALLY SHOOCKKEDD.
LOLSSSS.
Den go out for "LUNCH" with her and BONG.
At bugis.
Sooo boring. No place sit.
Than i go buy chips and a bottle blueberry tea.
(WHO CARESSS WHAT I HAD FOR LUNCH!)lol
Than walk walk shop for her friends birthday gift.
Something she owes her friend la basically.
Than she buy this shirt.
Asked me for my stupid opinion.
Than i say anything lo
After that i go bugis lan shop play.
SB owned -.-
LIKE AS USUAL LO.
1 SB 2 bracer 1 threads 1 hyper 1 bkb.
Owned all the 4 friends.
VIPER, PA, JUGGERNAUT, NS.
Fucking funny laaa.
Than after that i slack around at arcade den go Serena house.
Geeezzz.
So smelly.
After that go back bugis.
I ate 2 plates of chicken rice and 2 cans of soyabean!
Than after that go find bong they all again at suntec.
Hmm overall today was quite a okay day ^^
I ENJOYED MYSELF ALOT ACTUALLY. XD

HAHAS soo fun.

-Feelings on love.
Time and again there's this doubt in my heart.Whats this feeling?..Listening to westlife - If i let you go.But i dont know if she feels the same. zzz. that uncertainty. I dont feel safe. i dont feel good either.She gives me that "attention". that particular feeling that she "wants" me as well.But i might be wrong. Should i try?I'm scared.This is just too much off my imagination.But i keep thinking of her somehow.Just a feeling to keep and hold someone safe.But i must be responsible. I feel i cant be a good bf i cant provide and stuff. What should i do? Time and againi'm dreading over so many questions. And i can never get any answers. Why..What do i really fear?Its not the distance.I know shes a great girl.She knows what she should do and not.I cant eleborate anymore people who read might figure out who it might be xD.
Whats really needed in a relationship.Why do i want one?
Development feelings? What? I forgot what i've said about love.
I wont mention who that person is.But just thinking of being with her occasionally and being with her makes me happy.But somehow i dont really feel love..
Be friends? Or 'HAVE HER'
Stupid la i'm just not ready

Thinking about my past thinking about my ex.
I dont know what i wanna say or anything.
Its not the same
Nothing will be the same as it used to be.
I know it.

I'm off on monday.
I'm off on TUESDAY AS WELL!?
WTF?
ONE MORE TIME LIKE THIS I SWEAR I'LL QUIT.
Today found out more about some of my colleagues background
Actually 1 only la.
Hiazz today wacko nya -.-
Guess its not really a crush i dont feel much at all.
Probably just a distraction.
hahahas.
Yesterday was quite havocktic.
Aii ya. Life is soo straightforward in my face.
After my break up i learnt so many things.
About true, total, failure
And alot of other disappointing things in life.
I'm glad for certain things.
But for others? I seriously am not happy at ALL.
Same goal.
Same vision.
And feelings for one another.
Feelings can be developed.
Whats love? I dont know i dont really care le.
Its just a disappointing thing -.-
What more can i say or stuff.
Just got to keep moving right?

But one thing remains in my mind..
If you never try you never know.
But if i try.. Can i commit and do it?
Its not going to be easy.
Its not going to be my way.
I'm just lost.

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