Today i woke up due to rain responsibility and physical will?
Wake up to close window cas my clothes hanging there.
Than i go back sleep.
Wake up because i want to change my psp games.
So i wake up again and settle my files.
And went back to sleep.
Somehow b4 my alarm rang i woke up again.
See the time.
ahhlaamak time to wake up la.
Hehe
Wowded.
Going to work today at 1-6 thann 7-12
10 hrs.
But i wanna reach by 12 xD
Lalalalala i shall start preparing

Reality speaking what am i thinking.
Following my heart.
Following my brain.
Following the flow of the wind.
Somehow its blowing in all directions.
I went to work.
Super slack than i work work work.
Screwed around.
Hey tml onwards alot of ppl not around le.
Saddening but true.
I'll miss them but so what.
Than i'll be working kitchen alot.
I wish life would be better.
I miss her.
I want her somehow.
The feeling of ZW reminds me of alot of things.
I took cab home.
Remembered the time after the movie.
I just loved her crazy.
But shes not the one..
Shes just not the one.
Maybe this one is?
Maybe....
Should i tell her?
Should i give myself another chance?
Should i take things a step higher?
I dont know i'm kinda scared -.-
No harm trying they all say.
But i'm scared as usual.
Its so obvious as people say.
Its a psychological effect that i create.
But can you guys see what i'm trying to do?
REALLY SEE WHATS GOING ON?
I betchya dont.

Mixed up.Mixed feelings.
BASICALLY ITS CALLED CONFUSION LA.
What are you really thinking about...
-.-
I'm not going to guess but stop giving me false hope.
I'm really "DESPERATE" in a way but i wont allow myself to accept such an invitation.
If you really want something just ask or just tell me
I'll do what i can within my means anything else please just dont involve me can?
I dont care about your past.
I dont care about what you've done or did.
As long as you know what you want and know how you feel
Why are the others involved?
They can only influence you and say things.
Maybe physically force you into doing somethings but its not the same.
Being forced and having a choice.
If i had a choice i really just let it be.
I'll follow the wind..
Let it lead me and hopefully down the right path.
I'm confused and sad.
I'm sooo sianded.
I'm soo alone anyways.
No life.. i shall go slack around now.
Somehow its like being thrown around.
This stupid feeling of being trapped in something and yet escaping it halfway but being pulled back in by the person whose asking me to run out.
I'M running but my insides are full or doubt and probably will regret if i really do.
So stop mixing me up.
I just want to do something and not regret.
Don't mix me up with others.
I'm NOT THE SAME.

If you buy a jigsaw base on the picture you see on the box.
thats called the exterior.
But when you fix it you feel that you're challenged by the countless pieces of jigsaws.
And I GAVE UP FIXING IT.
But occasionally.
The puzzle is being fixed by someone else for me.(whether i want it or not)
Slowly i start to see that the picture i see is not as beautiful as i saw once before.
Maybe its because someone else fixed it?
OR maybe it was just what i saw b4 i fixed it.
Beautiful yet in so many pieces.
Can you fix something as beautiful back as this back together?
Can you cover the "scars" the "damage" done after "breaking the picture down"

Today i wake up chiong go find Serena and send her kids to childcare.
Than go work with her early.
Walked to suntec and back.
Than i started work.
Did quite a number of orders than i sliced tomatoes.
Than i did orders again.
Than i got misunderstood and scolded for nothing
laughed at for no apperant reason.
And than i was apologised to?
Eh i'm like a dam toy sia.
I'm patient.
I'm nice so you can just take advantage?
Probably i shouldnt say such a thing -.-
I'm just gonna take things easy.
Peeled alot of mushrooms.

Went to pick my godchildren up after work.
zomgg soo cuteee~!


I love kids.
No doubt about it.
"Who am i?":
-GORR KORRR.
wah biang soo cute larhs.

Than go "HOME" talked to Jaslyn.
Biang eh.
she ahh can go on and on and on and on.
Not bad man.
I no mood say anything cas she was full of complains.
But not about me la
Soo funny la.
Hiazz jas jas jas.I'M SPEECHLESS.
And when you speak so fast you sound like you wanna cry like dat sia.
I cant TELL..
Than you tell me soo many "weird things"!
Yarr rigghtt.
inviting me over eh?
GLADLY ^^!!
But sorry i'm not that kinda person.
IF YOU'VE HIDDEN INTENTIONS.
Please let me know i cant read between the lines =x
Or rather, I rather KNOW.
Please be direct.
Yawnz i'm soo trusted that i dont like it .
I REALLY HATE KEEPING SECRETS.
I hope that this piece of "puzzle"
Could be replaced with another one.
OR just removed.

Weird thoughts.
Hiaxx Today zhao out...
find Serena Bong and Ken.
than... ______ called me.
Hiazz than i asked alot of questions.
And they questions me alot also.
But when ken fianlly came.
Its like they kinda were shocked when i asked those questions
Like i could predict that was going to happen.
Hiazz what should i say.
What can i do.
When around to slack.
Waste abit of cash
And exercisee!!.
Geez i'm sleepy.
Hiaz i dont feel like saying much
TOO MANY SECRETS TO KEEP
to many thoughts to settle
MY MIND IS TIRED.
it shall rest.

I'LL BLOG LATER

Went lan gaming with nicholas leslie and gang
Won 1st game.
2nd game lose like shit -.-
SERIOUSLY?
4 agility heros?
WTF?
Than after that slack around like crap lose to PUBLIC SOMMORE?
GUYS WHAT THE HELL!.
Guess they were tired.
Geezz~
Never mind.
Go home than i sleeepppp.
Had this 'BRA' dream sia.
Dont know why in this dream i keep walking around this "bra department store"
THAN CANNOT WALK OUT SIA.
Walk everywhere all the different brands of bra shops
ROFL?
=x REMINDED ME OF MY EX =X
hahahahahahah never mind shant eleborate.
AII YAA stupid phone while charging = silent mode
If not i go find my god son and daughter le.
LALALALA i'm gonna go work early
I MISS SERENAA omg =x LOLZZZ~!

In a way la. BUT NOTHING WEIRD HOR.
People always have weird ideas.I miss my "god mummy"
LOLZZZ~

"Myself"

Something rather interesting?

I DONT KNOW LALALALA.

You never know if you dont try ^^

Listened to this song on someones blog.

CRAP MAN THATS WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO PUT ON MY BLOG.

but in fact the actual thing is that i rather emo than prove a point.

I'M NOT LIKE YOU ONE BIT.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Today i go work at like 1030.
But when i woke up after drinking so much yesterday.
I THINK I had midnight gastric.
But i sleeping so never feel anything.
When i wake up got this stupid sharp pain in my stomache lo
CANNOT MOVE SIAA..
Den i lay in bed for like "AGES"
Than i finally made a move came online slack around.
Than OMG I'M LATE FOR WORK
rush down.
TODAY AT WORK I SOO HYPER SIA.
I mean while doing cold side i was not la
BUT ONCE I GET INTO THE KITCHEN
Omgggggg.
KITCHEN IS MY 2NDD HOMMEEE
lalalalalalA!
Wacko me -.-
Than i help Winnie with her cold side also
IN AND OUT omgg thats soo fking fun la
my life i wish can like dat den more fun more exciting more things to do den i sure dam hyper everyday.
Slacking around now.
WORK 12 HOURS TODAY.
Somehow i kinda miss some things.
I just wanna..
Slack around..

Today i wake up.
Slack around den i think i blogged
Dont know lei i lazy check and see.
Than i just slack slack stone go see see friendster for fun.
Than i go Bathe and prepare for work early.
Than horr...
Jacelyn called me.MY GOD SIS.
I picked up the phone.
Helllooo?
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DOOO.*sobs*
And she starts to cry the moment i picked up the phone la.
what the @#^$& man!
Sheesh i'm also super extremly depressed la.
I was actually planning to reach work early
Than talk until I LATE SIA.
Zzz at least i made her happy.
Or feel better.
Took a cab to work.
Zzzz 11 dollars.
Jac,Jac,Jac -.-
Hiazz you ahh.
See how much i sacrifice!!!
i'm also super depressed la.
I'm giving up so many things for what i feel is right.
My happiness comes after others.
Felt soo depressed la.
When jac like talked about her problems i felt like just hanging up on her.
Zzzz But i want to help people so i did my best to help.
And i managed to.

Stress.
Than at work.
The "new worker" KIM - talked to me about family.
Hey man i was like .
If you dont know what happens around some peoples family.
Than dont say or dont ask.
If the person talks about it just listen dont ask questions.
Curiousity will kill you and hurt others.
Than she said i was OLD.
And than she said i was a really nice guy o.0?
Thats why i love more mature and OLDER PEOPLE.
They're more understanding and they can communicate better with me

Than she ask me.
WHY I NO GF.
Its like hiazz.
I tried.
I did what i can i do what i can i'm trying to do whatever i can.
But the pieces still never match or form a beautiful picture.
BECAUSE IT NEEDS 2 PEOPLE.
Not just a 1 persons effort.

She said i was active and yet quiet?
Hahas my hyper energy and my extremly emo- being.

Lolssss.
I'm soo stupid
lalalalalalala.
Charmainneeeee.
You're so weird?
Long time no talk suddenly i send you that kinda weird msg you also reply.
ROFLL.
Working at 6 later lei
But i now dam bored sia.
Feel like going down to work place now slack lo
ROFL.
i'm like soo no life la.
I shall go slack around for now.
Wait some people finish school make some crappy phone calls.
Ahhh~ I'm soo sleepy.
Yet so "mentally high".
Yawnnzz once again.
Arghsss sleepyy.
LOL.
Slack slack slack.
Things are going to change after this month.
I'm soo happy yet soo ...
Boredd. ---



Stone.

Hiazz i dont know what i'm doing.
Lols i'm not despo ^^
I'M GLAD I'M NOT
Hiazz.
Wake up sleep wake up..
Than go work "early"
Today take ctrl of kitchen again.
Soo fun xD
Afterwork "chiong" home.
Oh ya 1 more thing no need to hide le ba.
I told jaslyn that i wont be chasing her liaos.
Zzzzz what am i thinking.
What am i saying,What am i doing.
I also dont know la.
Dont caree~
Than afterwork i go home.
Reach home Serena call me go pei her talk.
Okay lo i go down pei her.
Den see her 2 kids and Roland.
Wahh soo cute laaa.
Her daughter and son.
But she's in a tight situation and spot lo.
I only can lend her my time and ears.
Anything possible i'll be sure to help.
Carried her little girl home..
OMGGESs I've a god daughter le.
A REAL ONE..
Than after that i slacked around with roland and serena.
Than after that had a good talk with serena.
Hahahas... Hey man i'm helping people.
I'm changing people's lives for the better!
I'm so happy with myself la.
It covers for my misery.
I dont care what people say.
I dont care whats happening around me.
As long as i can hold myself.
Support myself and be happy with what i'm doing.
Thats all that matters for now.
Gonna sleep like now.

Slept at around 4-5am .
Cant remember.
Wake up at 6am+
Dont remember also.
Drink alot of water.
Try to sleep cannot sleep lei.
Zzzz why siaa..
I feel abit tired.
Physically.
Somehow i feel so insecure?
Or is it just too much energy...
I feel i want to do something but yet...
I just wanna waste my time.
But somehow i dont feel that time is something i should waste.
So what should i do...

WOW man.
I'm soo shocked.
Today wake up cas of SERENA.
Wake me up go buy shoes.
Go out of house go find her.
Den take bus 196.
Den in the end WE GOT LOST?
wahh THANKS ALOT HORR.
LOLS.
Waste my time.
Den in the end i ate lunch and went to "work" super early.
Hiazz waste my time and day and MY SLEEPING TIME!.
Slacked around with serena
Than pei jaslyn walk around.
She gave me a keychain? o.0
At work was so so lah.
Today saturday but soo boringg NO ORDERS DE LA.
Than after work slack awhile.
Talked to winnie abuot a few things after work..
Hahas.Kinda shocking.
Guess i'm kinda "NORMAL"
Cant say anything for now ba.
Dont want to also
Just that Time i necessary in certain things.
tAKE care everyone!.

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