Saturday, June 21, 20086/21/2008 11:43:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Questions
While going to work today going down in the life.
I heard 2 aunties talking about one of their sons.
A:2-Hows life? Still cooking?
A:1-Not cooking alot.
A:1-Only my husband and I are at home.
A:2-What about your son?
A:1-Oh after work he goes out and does what he wants.
A:2-Hmmm has he found himself a girlfriend?
A:1-Why worry?
A:1-Generations now adays worry about this kinda thing?
A:1-They get married and divorced.
Therefore i was thinking..
Whats marriage about?
Is it just words say to pacify your spouse?
Is it a way of letting people know you're capable of getting married?
Is it a way to show that you're wanted?
Or you just want to "OWN" someone.
Or is it you really love the person.
Now i know why she said
Anyone can say those words.
But
Do you really mean what you say?
If you ask me?
I'm serious about you.
Always have been,
If i have a 2nd chance
I'll always be.
I wont use words.
I'll show and prove it to you.
Therefore. Whats life?
Whats the meaning of life.
For yourself?
For reproduction?
For your own goals?
What is it?That drives us.
Went to work. Kept chopping onions.
And cut myself
And woke up from my sub consciousness
Cried.
Cried not because of only the onions. But also because of her.
All the songs were about 2nd chances.
And about reuniting.
And regrets.
I feel if I'm going to let go
I'll regret for my life.
But now is not the time to say all this.
Its all in time.
I've got time.
I'll wait..
Extended work till 1030..
Dint want to go home.
Dint want to go slack.
Dint want to think.
Was so quiet at my work place.
Actually since I've been working there
I've always been quiet.
People think I'm mentally ill.
Maybe i am abit MENTALLY STRESSED.
Because of my "hearing problems"
And I'm so quiet.
They serve so many sweet things there.
Feel so ...
Sick. Smelling sugar.
Drinking sugar.
And getting myself sick.
Today felt this intense pain at the back of my head.
Felt like fainting.
But dint.
I don't want any sugar.
I don't need any sweets.
I just want her.
She is sweeter den sugar.
And just perfect in every way.
That's why i still love her.
I love her for trying.
I love her for being there for me.
I love her for taking care of me.
I love her for restricting me.
I love her for smiling and talking to me.
I love her even when she scolds me.
Because i know she cares.
Shes my sugar to my life.
I know she still loves me
That's why she wont let me go.
I know she knows.
IMY.
Actually i always miss you.
Even when I'm with you
I never have enough..
That's how much i love you.
Its never enough.
Because there's so much more that we can achieve.
When you're "free".
6/21/2008 08:44:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Saturday, June 21 , 2008
What now..
Just woke up from my sleep .
Is it early or late?
I've been sleeping lesser hours.
Waking up earlier.
But theres nothing to do.
Wish there was.
If she was still here i would be messaging her good morning
*Crys*
Yes i know its stupid to think about the past.
But sometimes it stills bothers me.
She said she loved me.
She said she had the feeling
Why let me go?
She has her personal reasons maybe.
I told her, I guided her
But yes she took everything i said and make it seem as though
its irrelevant.
But i don't care, If she comes back to me
I'll still give my all.
I really want to look after something.
Make me feel existant.
To make me feel loved and Wanted.
You're loved . You're wanted.
You have been since you were with me.
That love you cant give yourself
I'll Give it all to you
Cant trust me?
I admit I've told a few lies.
Scared?
Probably.
But whats done is done.
I'll slack my morning away.
Working 12-5. Hope they extend my shift.
I still love you.
But if you don't love me.
Over time I'll wait for you.
Its kinda interesting when someone wants to be your friend.
Yesterday my friends friends called me.
Say want intro girls to me to help me forget.
Grateful.
But UN-appreciative.
I'm a simple person.
I don't want more than i can handle.
I want to just give.
And i want to be loved.
I want someone to be there for me.
And I'll be there.
I want HER to know.
The effort and love i put in
Every time i went down to her school.
When i go down just to see her for that
SHORT WHILE.
Makes me feel so happy
Her smile brighten ups my day.
Okay never mind.
Lets just move on for now k?
the more i think the more it hurts.
Somehow I'll never forget you.
My life is full of memories.
And sadness.
Guess that's the way I'll live life
Todays Scorpio Horoscope
You feel inspired to redo your look or redecorate your space, though you sghould put a bit more thought than usual into the process, especially if the inspiration is a radical departure from the past.
Friday, June 20, 20086/20/2008 11:39:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Wow they actually care.Abit.
My existence is actually bothered by my colleague in my work place lols..
Why am i so EMO?
That's why i don't know.
Why do i still care.
Why do i still love her.
Why am i going crazy.
My god sis asked me what would you do if your wife had an affair.
What would you do?
I replied.
That would depends..
In life sometimes people stray away from what they're supposed to do
And what they want.
Its like a written compo..
You write out of point You fail
You write out of point and go back . You get less marks But might still pass.
And some stick to the point. And score.But might still fail.
It all depends on the individual.
Depends..
If its me. I'll forgive .
If i think and feel its no longer possible
I'll give up and declare it as the end.
no one is perfect,
What are you able to sacrifice. What are you willing to give.
In this world there are alot of kinds of people.
There are all kinds of people with different personalities.
Whats love . Whats real love. What are you going to do with love.
Why love.. Why sacrifice . Why give.
Why why why. Life is full of question. You decide what you want to do
But sometimes things are not a choice..
Work was Boring . But yea.. I'll make it through and make friends there.
And maybe someone might accept me for who i am.
Why am i sacrificing so much.
Why do i get mistaken when I'm trying to give.
Why am i always getting mistaken.
But I'll Prove myself.
I'll work hard and listen to the advices.
The wise advices that will help me make the right decision and move on.
But if she wants me back. I'll definitely go back to her.
W/o regrets. W/o needing to think.
Bored out of my wits now Think I'll go sleep
Working tomorrow also 12-5. Boring . Boring.
Take care.
I wonder if you'll know how much difference when you're without me.
I know whats life without you.
No one can replace you.
I know you tried to love me.
I know you did love me.
I know you might still love me.
But if you need time.
This week is yours.
I'll message you on Friday 12.22PM.
That's exactly a week.
I promise you, And i still care.
Why is it so difficult for me..
Why.
http://www.videojug.com/film/how-to-deal-with-a-broken-heart
Stupid link ROFL
6/20/2008 04:38:00 PM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Clueless
Hiaz. I dint know what to do today..
I spent the whole morning searching for nice blogskins.
Watched some super lame shows on kids central.
Realised that after i broke up I'm really back to my oldself.
No longer eating much.
I dont care much about myself..
Thats why i dont take care of myself much.
She put so much meaning in my life.
Makes my existance so wanted.
Oh wells.
She messaged me.
After dis whole thing, even if we are back tgt. We dont trust each other
ANW so i dun c the point.
U can keep your luck to find someone better den me.
I dont wan to get hurt anymore n so do you.
I'll Speak to you again in a week.
We Need time.
I agree, We need time.But trusting each other?
Thats for our own individual self to decide what we want.
I was called back to work. Does that show how much I'm Needed?
Is my existance wanted?
To work? I wished there was more meaning.
Working 6-1030 again.
Well Zhiwei if you ever read this.
I just want you to know that I still trust you.
And we might find our places in this world someday.
And I'll definately forgive you.
Because i never understood you.
Its my fault. That i was so blind Though it was so obvious.
Till than take care. Going to work soon..
Watching bleach now. If only you understood how i feel.
I LOVED YOU more than I LOVED MYSELF.
Basically I dont even LOVE MYSELF.
I only LOVED YOU
I wish that this is a horrible nightmare i'll wake up from.
If i had a chance i would do it all again .
If i had a chance i will never make the same mistake again.
If you knew what is it like to be alone..
I'm InComplete.
6/20/2008 08:39:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Its morning already
Wow i actually got to sleep properly last night.
I'm quite amazed.
Actually i still don't know what i want.
I might still want her back but i know its impossible.
I don't know her anymore. Shes become someone really Blurry.
Hiaz. Oh wells. Guess that's that than.
Guess sometimes when you give your all its not enough.
Wake up so early than now I'm clueless what to do.
There's nothing to do .
Nothing to keep my mind occupied
Now my heart is beginning to hurt.
Actually my heart woke me up.
That pain..
I feel so different now.
I've grown and changed.
Its better i know
But there's more to life.
Thank you to all that have been there for me as well .
In times like this, I wished i know what to do.
How to burn time away.
God this really sucks.
Not working today , Cant game.
I'm not studying. Feel like slacking but no one to slack with me.
I don't know what to do..
except move on and keep myself occupied
Do what you can to move forward
Being happy again is always worth it
Its your life..
Watched this stupid show on msn.
Anatomy of Sex
Both man and woman have only 1 role on earth
And that is to reproduce their DNA.
Thats the bottom line.
6/20/2008 12:04:00 AM
I'll be here, Waiting for love , Waiting for you.
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
INTRODUCTION
Hi everyone. To all those sad unloved people. And those who're in love. Love is a double edge sword. It can be super sweet. And heart breaking painful, sometimes when you're so heartbroken. You might feel like doing stupid things. But if you really love a person. Just love that person till the end. Unless its really impossible. But in life nothing is impossible.
I'm a loner.I've nvr loved my parents, nor my family. I've been living in a hostel for 4 years.And when i was young i stayed in a childcare. So i'm always alone. I'm simple minded. And easy going. I'm not money minded. _ _/11/1990 I'm scorpio.
SCORPIO MAN
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and
always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so
negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He
absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused
feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen
and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves
before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly
achieved his
goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put
all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a
big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates
thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long,
for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too
much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and
will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will
not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere
man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over
sensitive person, try not to
ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able
to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he
will say 'yes, as big as a balloon'. He makes such comments because he cares
for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
If he says 'you look pretty today', you can be proud because he will not say
such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be
both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are
in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be
vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could
not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends.
He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a
complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really
know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or
when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already
forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and
admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in
love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple
woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able
to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman
who sits around waiting for his
call.
-END-
thats basically me ^^
I'm who i am.I'll live life the way i want..
And live it without regrets.
The past is nothing but a memory to refer too.
This blog will be about my feelings.
My goals. My emotions. And solutions to problems.
And of course just dragging on my daily life too.
If you want to know me ^^ add me.
Paulwongkahhoe_1990@hotmail.com
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