Saturday, July 26, 20087/26/2008 11:18:00 PM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Resignation?
Today work was dam F-ing hectic laC'b stupid people i work with.
Afternoon okay.
Once that Daniel(S) come liao
Shout shout .
Human rights at where sia.
You tired others not tired and frustrated as well?
Say one sorry not enough.
Than he still want take it out on me?
WTF?
What the Fk did i do wrong sia
I just asking whats the order.
I followed instructions well lo
You all anyhow throw responsibility around
Than i must tolerate?
Lucky i dint retaliate -.-
Or else i might have blood on my hands liao =x
+.+ Zzzz seriously wtf la.
Apart from that today was just Work work work.
Peel onions peel mushroom.
ARGHS stupid i smell like all the food and ingredients already la.
I work there sommore i can might as well marinate myself LOL.
At times i still wonder about the past.
But this is the best decision.
Because somethings change somethings dont.
And i hope this is for the best and all the decisions made will be right.
Should i resign from that stupid job?Advoid?
Or just tell him in the face?
Lazy la lets see what fate brings me.
x] Jasmineee TEAAA.
thank you for being here FOR me
WITH me as well~
Arghs so grateful to have you as my friend x]
and ur birthday coming leii BUT I'M BROKE T_T
how what you want for your present? LOL.
Char char aii yoo so sad sia today wan talk to you
Also got no chance.
Your parents 1 thing.
My work another T_T
No fate arrhs!
HUAT AHH! stupid =/
Nyaa working full tml as well zzz
I hope i can earn more money.
xD Time to start building up my foundation
Not a wall around me.
But a home for me to belong.
7/26/2008 10:28:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Symbol: the Scorpion
Ruling Planet: Mars/Pluto
Ruling House: Eighth House
Element: Water
Quality: Fixed
Body Parts: sex organs
Keyword: SEX
Date with destiny: Cancer, Pisces
Run for the hills: Leo, Aquarius
Where you glow: investigating
What makes you tick: chess
Fitness forecast: sex
Play date: chatting on the Internet
Perfect jobs: private investigator, surgeon
Best accessory: magnifying glass
A sure thing: magnetism
Destination: The Netherlands
Pleasure: mystery, calling the shots, passion
Pain: exposure, simplicity, interruption
What's my line? Yeah, Baby!
WTF ? LOLS
Funny sia
Working full shift for 2 days xD
CHIONG ARHS~
Next month buy PSP x]
Steady one.
Money fly again T_T
300 dollars hmm 6 full shift days
Can la~ lols x]
From next week on will be super worky
Good thing ma right? Hehe accumplishing what i want.
Need to do some goal catching already.
But than also wanna think about what to do.
Arghs need some proper advice.
Study...Will poly be good or private -.-
Confused.What do i really want.
Private will be harsh on me.
I need to sit down and reconsider my life b4 i make a mistake.
Channel U 10 pm no longer showing le.
darnnit realised it was a good show too late.
Learned a few things from it though.
GG work soon. All e best man~
Hope today will be "fruitful"
I'm friggin bored la.
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-You're at odds with someone who is important in your life -- but this argument should end up bringing you together in the long run. Don't hold back, but try not to get too vicious, either!
-Right now, you should try to be even more open about your life than you normally are -- by letting other people know what you're up to, you will make them feel more important. One of your friends has been feeling a little neglected, and although their choice about how to communicate that fact to you isn't very mature, you are getting the message. It's time to open up and let them know why you may have been avoiding them. It's for the health of your relationship
WTF ? LOLS
Funny sia
Working full shift for 2 days xD
CHIONG ARHS~
Next month buy PSP x]
Steady one.
Money fly again T_T
300 dollars hmm 6 full shift days
Can la~ lols x]
From next week on will be super worky
Good thing ma right? Hehe accumplishing what i want.
Need to do some goal catching already.
But than also wanna think about what to do.
Arghs need some proper advice.
Study...Will poly be good or private -.-
Confused.What do i really want.
Private will be harsh on me.
I need to sit down and reconsider my life b4 i make a mistake.
Channel U 10 pm no longer showing le.
darnnit realised it was a good show too late.
Learned a few things from it though.
GG work soon. All e best man~
Hope today will be "fruitful"
I'm friggin bored la.
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-You're at odds with someone who is important in your life -- but this argument should end up bringing you together in the long run. Don't hold back, but try not to get too vicious, either!
-Right now, you should try to be even more open about your life than you normally are -- by letting other people know what you're up to, you will make them feel more important. One of your friends has been feeling a little neglected, and although their choice about how to communicate that fact to you isn't very mature, you are getting the message. It's time to open up and let them know why you may have been avoiding them. It's for the health of your relationship
Friday, July 25, 20087/25/2008 06:34:00 PM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Friday , July 25 , 2008
Day off
Today got a day off actually wan go shopping with my cousin one.Day off
In the end?
Never go -.-
Dont know why lei . zzz
Aii ya.
No "fate" mood to meet.
EZ link card no money =x
While going home today i slept in the bus 2 times.
Woke up at around 9 stops b4 i reach my stop
Than fell asleep again.
KNS i woke up at the terminal
Than was ALONE in the bus.
Zzzz cant get out also.
Than i just sat inside till the bus "departed" for my hse.
So stupid la!
Slept the whole day away.
Woke up arnd 5+
Tml working full shift
Sunday also
Hiazzz Zzzz
Sian lo.
Anyways its kinda stupid.
Bored dont wanna go lan liaoz.
Said i wont go but still going.
I'm free.
I'm alone.
I'm happy when i look back.
Because its better to live with reality and know it
Than live in lies.
Friends will side you least they know the truth.
Even if some knows they'll stick with you.
No one in the world can be trusted 100%?
Thats what my friend said.
Stupid considering all the facts the only thing i get.
Is a headache LOLz
Looking at relationships.
And the past. A relationship is when you trust or can fall back to that person.
Even when everyone else is against you.
Yawnz I'm not gonna bitch anymore.
I'll just go watch my detective shows and learn more stuff x]
I'm alone.
I'm happy when i look back.
Because its better to live with reality and know it
Than live in lies.
Friends will side you least they know the truth.
Even if some knows they'll stick with you.
No one in the world can be trusted 100%?
Thats what my friend said.
Stupid considering all the facts the only thing i get.
Is a headache LOLz
Looking at relationships.
And the past. A relationship is when you trust or can fall back to that person.
Even when everyone else is against you.
Yawnz I'm not gonna bitch anymore.
I'll just go watch my detective shows and learn more stuff x]
Learning things.
Experiencing stuff.
Going through painful days/time.
Make you mature and grow up faster.
Better than living in a false reality that you make yourself.
And leaving some dreams behind are part of life.
Because even if you want it.
Know your own limits and those involed in it.
Somewhat no matter how i look at sitautions.
We kept going.(she)
Was because she wanted to experience.
Wanted to know. Probably lustful.
But what can i say.Because of the way she accused me
Was that way.But i never gave in to lust.
And i will never do so.
If thats what you mean by you loved me and i never did.
You're a bloody joke.
We kept going.(she)
Was because she wanted to experience.
Wanted to know. Probably lustful.
But what can i say.Because of the way she accused me
Was that way.But i never gave in to lust.
And i will never do so.
If thats what you mean by you loved me and i never did.
You're a bloody joke.
*GREEN MY FAV COLOUR xD
The colour of nature.
The colour of inner peace to me.
The colour of nature.
The colour of inner peace to me.
Todays Scorpios Horoscope.
-You're feeling pretty deeply serious about some issue that may have just popped up, but that doesn't mean you can't spread the word. Your intensity will attract some and scare off others.
-You may have just won an amazing victory, but try not to celebrate too loudly or long about it -- you have to be careful not to tick off people whose help you will need in the very near future. You've earned the position you're in right now, and you deserve to be proud of yourself. But bigger things are at stake than your ego, right now. If you want to avoid conflict, you need to avoid bragging about how wonderful you are. The people who need to know how special you are already know it.
-You're feeling pretty deeply serious about some issue that may have just popped up, but that doesn't mean you can't spread the word. Your intensity will attract some and scare off others.
-You may have just won an amazing victory, but try not to celebrate too loudly or long about it -- you have to be careful not to tick off people whose help you will need in the very near future. You've earned the position you're in right now, and you deserve to be proud of yourself. But bigger things are at stake than your ego, right now. If you want to avoid conflict, you need to avoid bragging about how wonderful you are. The people who need to know how special you are already know it.
*To me I dont care whatever that happened.
The past is the past.I remember the happiness only.
I hope you're happy as well~
Achieve what you want in life.
We're growing up.
Thats life.I hope you've learned something while with me
Take care.
The past is the past.I remember the happiness only.
I hope you're happy as well~
Achieve what you want in life.
We're growing up.
Thats life.I hope you've learned something while with me
Take care.
Thursday, July 24, 20087/24/2008 06:46:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Sleepy
Incase i forget to blog later
Someone said she'll never visit my blog again.
Dont visit lo.
As if i care about your existance like dat.
I dint love you?
Ya i dont love you.
I never did k? happy now?
If thats what you wanna accuse me and be happy with it
So be it.
Ya Happy now?
What i said were all lies
I wanted you back because i was lustful.
I wanted to fk you up good
that was my intentions k?
Thast what you want me to say right?
Nah you must be happy now . I'll degrade myself i dont mind.
If thats what you want than so be it.
ya i flirted with like sylvie which is overseas.
And like charmaine who was telling me what to do.
Ya okay i'm the big baddie.
I flirted with all the girls on maple.
I know i'm a drop out so what? Big deal?
As you said even with qualifications =/= good jobs.
But its easier.
Its not like i gave it up.
I just dont have enough money to support myself.
You try living on your own than.
Hehs.I dont even know why am i saying this shit to please her.
But anyways i've really gotten over her already.
Yawnz.Just need more time to settle into this "new" life.
This new goal that i'm working so hard for.
A goal to get married and protect my loved ones.
So be it. I'll fall and pick myself up.
I dint know what to think or say because i thought things would change
Guess its better the way it is now anyways.
I'm better off. So are you
Thats life we experience and learn.
I'M MR POSITIVE !
And a stupid kid growing in the process
* Talked to Leslie about what you said about me.
Thats why i wrote this.
I'm So Jealous sia x]
Lols and its super funny la her post.
Tio reject? I dint even ask-.-
Yawnz. gg work soon Laterzz~
Seriously no matter how i think about it
Why am i writing this ah? -.-
Its not attention seeking but just something to say?
My style of "Sacarsam" ba lols.~
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-You're feeling pretty set on some new project or plan that may not have a lot of support from your peers -- but you don't need them at this point! Move forward and they'll help pick it up later.
-If you are trying to get closer to someone right now, keep in mind that romance is supposed to be fun. Your heart may be pounding to a frightening extent every time you talk to them, but don't let that anxiety show! This is a good day to start something, so be confident and be relaxed! You'll get so much farther by keeping things light and breezy. This same strategy applies to any aspect of life. So if you're about to have any kind of difficult conversation, don't get too heavy.
9.04pm At lan again.
After work.Went out with my colleagues
Went to eat dinner -.-
Super stupid la travel so far just to eat a bowl of 3.50 cents lakasa.
Anyways. I was thinking. She said i never loved her.
LOL if that was not love than what is.
Hmmm good question lei.
Anyways Thats all i gonna say -.-
Love? If i dint "love" you so you LOVED me right?
Thats the meaning of love right?
Hahas anyways great logics you're using.
please accuse me properly la hor.
What i said at the start of our relationship -.-
But seriously its just fucking annoying to myself that i'm accused
Worse still people at my work place think i like someone there.
2 people actually
Wad de fuck lo. I dont wanna fall in love.
I dont want to get hurt or hurt anyone.
Eye candy can?
Falsely accusing me
Thats what i hate most.
Its your mouth i cant stop you from gossiping.
But you yourself can assume whats real.
But the person themselves know whats real and not.
Wednesday, July 23, 20087/23/2008 07:39:00 PM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Headaches and planning -.-
Headache ah today -.-Go work, Work non stop.
After work slacked around
Guess i'm not cut up to be around people like them.
I'm not "mature" and old enough.
Whatever i dont care n/e ways.
Talked about living in singapore.
The cost. Having your own apartment.
Geez had a headache.
As long as you're married you can "BUY" HDB.
Singles 35 and above. unless you're rich you can buy condo or private.
at ANY AGE.
Was thinking about how to make money.Earn money fast.
Than i was re-thinking.
Should i sign on army and study?
Or should i just complete army and go private.
How much the course cost?
Can i afford it?
Hiaz. I dont want to rely on anyone -.-
I dont want to borrow money as well.
People now adays dont want to have children and get married.
Because they cant afford.
Theres no standard to getting married etc.
Whats love?Whats the meaning of life now..
-.-
I cant stop people from saying what they want to.
But does what they say really matter?
Dont worry be happy.
7/23/2008 10:39:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Now i know.
Slept peacefully last night.talked to alison and stuff.
And theres one thing Zhi Wei said.
I'm despo for girls.
Rofl. Than i asked Alison straight.
Do you think i'm flirting with you or whatever?
CAT W T-TUDE (EXOTIC FELINE WANNABE) said:
just tell her whatever i did not flirt is ur imagination running wild. stop accusing me.. if you carry on like that ull nv get a good bf cuz u will accuse every boy that is kind to everyone..
I'm kind to everyone o.0!
Lols i dont really think so ba.
I choose my friends anyways. thats whats she said.
I dont accuse randomly till now i guess she does not understand that.
Too bad for her lo.
Accuse her for what she is so she can say what she wants about me?
Sounds good.
Accuse lo.I know what i did.You know what you did.
We know what we've done.
My bad points? Lols please i bet you already know i've plans.
If you dont its because you dint listen.
So what if i'm a drop out.
I learn.And i know what to do now.
Whats right to do. How to make life right.
And i wont allow people to make the same mistake.
So accuse me all you want as from yesterday onwards.
No matter what you say does not matter to me anymore.
Because all your accusations are "false"
What i say were just messages you sent me.
Judging from there thats all i say.
If i said something wrong than its either a "memory" failure or 2nd vision.
Too bad i told you i deleted the messages cas i'm moving on.
And i did. Dont have any "prove"
But it does not matter.
At least now i know we should not care about each other
Push the blame to me once again.
I dont mind accepting it.
Delete the prove.
So no one will know.
Say what you want and decieve everyone and yourself.
Look back at the past and think properly when we 1st broke up.
Before you start saying things.
But now.Say what you want.
Because you've changed.
And i'm glad you have. I'm sure your friends are glad too.
You're now more open straight.
And you do things. Not just say them.
All the best than~
Good morning everyone xD
Working at 12 Yawnz.
Nothing much to say except i hope i know what i'm doing now.
Like they say.
Every girl likes a "hardworking" guy
I'll work hard.
Provide "protection", a home, Safety as well~.
ZW dont come here and comment hor.
You dont know how much i've changed.
You dont know how much i've changed.
But even if you do.
I wont even bother replying.
Spamm if you want
I wont even bother replying.
Spamm if you want
Todays Scorpios Horoscope.
-Health and fitness are on your mind right now and it's the perfect time to get started on some new program that's meant to improve your well-being. Even the tiniest steps can take you pretty far!
-When it comes to helping other people, quality is much more important than quantity. After all, you should be doing it because you want to, not to score brownie points, right? So if you've got a friend who needs advice on their love life, an extra hand to help them move, or another pair of eyes to help them proofread their resume, don't do it halfway. Don't be watching the clock, worrying about how much time you're spending with them. Give them more time than you think they'll need.
-Health and fitness are on your mind right now and it's the perfect time to get started on some new program that's meant to improve your well-being. Even the tiniest steps can take you pretty far!
-When it comes to helping other people, quality is much more important than quantity. After all, you should be doing it because you want to, not to score brownie points, right? So if you've got a friend who needs advice on their love life, an extra hand to help them move, or another pair of eyes to help them proofread their resume, don't do it halfway. Don't be watching the clock, worrying about how much time you're spending with them. Give them more time than you think they'll need.
7/23/2008 02:38:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Anger?
For the once in a rare while i felt angry.Happy and like it dint bother me
Strangely as it is.
I seriously dont care?
Its so unlike me -.-
But well... I guess she really changed me.
I'm glad that i've seen further
I'm glad that she's showing her true colours.
I hope she will stay that way so people who love her.
Will love her for who she is and not pretends to be.
I'm not the kind that stabs one in the back.
Or hides and pretend.
Accuse all you want. I maybe a drop out.
But i want to study.
I want to go to school.
I'm just waiting for my army...
Till than i cant say much.
I wont lower myself to scold you.
I wont discriminate.
I wont stand by and watch people get hurt.
I'll protect those who are dear.
I dont care what you think or say.
Because its YOUR OWN OPINION.
Your life your decision do what you want.
I've decided already .
Accept the fact, face reality.
7/23/2008 12:45:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Wednesday , July 23 , 2008
Over means over.
Soo funny la she deleted my tags i posted.Over means over.
Coward -.-
Dont dare right? still dare say me
Final thing you said was i'm harassing your friend.
Lols i flirt with charmaine?
She reject me?
Did she?
Are you sure?
I'm despo?
ROFL are you even "sure-er" of that?
How many chance did i have to show my "despo" side.
But did i?
Why dint i?
Because i cared.
Now i know why we should not care.
Because we should do it so we dont have any "regrets" right?
Despo lols.. You know maybe i should have been.
Talking about sex and doing it is different .
If you want to "classify" me with sylvie?
Wells i think you've got me wrong.
haha but i dont care what you think anyways because thats all you know how to do
Falsely accuse people to make yourself feel "innocent"
Geez~ we're over girl why you still bitch so much about what i said or do.
For crying out loud i dont have anything to hide.
Unlike you.
Delete all your history.
Delete all your past.
Delete all of the things i've said because you know it best.
You can delete your blog as well.
Because people who know me and know you.
And reads maybe they'll really know what happened
Come find and confront me.
Anyone.
I've got nothing to hide.
I'll speak only the truth.
Tuesday, July 22, 20087/22/2008 10:17:00 PM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Zzz
Day by day as time passes.
I'm slowly getting over her.
But shes being sacarstic?
Take a bow by rihanna?
I cheated on you?
I dont think so more like you screwed my life up?
Take a bow maybe i would for being the stupidest guy ever.
Caring for you.Planning "OUR" FUTURE.
You really think that was all?
Fine. Whats the meaning of love than.
You tell me, But you wont.
What ever la you're glad we broke?
I'm even happier now.
Knowing that you are so sacarstic.
You're so "evil"
what i've said you twisted it.
What i've done it does not even matter to you.
When you said you LOVE me
You dint mean it.
So what am i taking a bow for?
What have i done wrong.
WHAT HAVE I DONE that i deserve your SACARSAM AND ACCUSATIONS.
So be it seriously.
I dont care anymore.
The past 2 months i've talked to my seniors
My collegues etc.
You wont know you wont understand how much i really loved you.
You wont care anyways.
You cant be bothered.
I thought you cared.
Guess i was wrong about you.
I was wrong from the start.
You werent someone who needs love.
You were just someone who wants to know.
Wants to experience.
And you treated me like a stepping stone.
While i dint.
So be it.You can get yourself an eyecandy.
You can do what you want. We have nothing to do with each other.
I was still thinking about you.
But i guess its no point thinking about someone who does not appericate it.
And still accuse me.
(biting the hand which feeds you)
I do the same.With my family.
I know whats it like.
From now on i offically declare that i wont even bother about you anymore.
All the times i thought about you.
All the times i wished you would change.
All the times i thought we were really in love
Were nothing more than just what i felt.
It was all drowned in lies that you overwhelmed me with.
So be it. You can decide what you wanna do than.
You can read my blog discriminate me
You can say what you want because i'm going to null myself.
Because your lies.
Your words.
no longer mean anything to me anymore.
I'm going to smash your existance in my mind.
Till its so dam small.
That it wont even remain.
I still keep your,Our pictures in my phone.
But i'm going to delete them.
Because that was not love.
Probably it was just an experience and thrill.
To you.
For myself.
I'll start over.
I know theres no time to waste.
I've got my life planned.
I've got a future to look ahead to .
I've got things i've to achieve.
Not for you, For us anymore.
But for MY soul mate.
You'll find yours i'll find mine.
You've caused enough hurt and pain.
Its time for me to gain.
I'm slowly getting over her.
But shes being sacarstic?
Take a bow by rihanna?
I cheated on you?
I dont think so more like you screwed my life up?
Take a bow maybe i would for being the stupidest guy ever.
Caring for you.Planning "OUR" FUTURE.
You really think that was all?
Fine. Whats the meaning of love than.
You tell me, But you wont.
What ever la you're glad we broke?
I'm even happier now.
Knowing that you are so sacarstic.
You're so "evil"
what i've said you twisted it.
What i've done it does not even matter to you.
When you said you LOVE me
You dint mean it.
So what am i taking a bow for?
What have i done wrong.
WHAT HAVE I DONE that i deserve your SACARSAM AND ACCUSATIONS.
So be it seriously.
I dont care anymore.
The past 2 months i've talked to my seniors
My collegues etc.
You wont know you wont understand how much i really loved you.
You wont care anyways.
You cant be bothered.
I thought you cared.
Guess i was wrong about you.
I was wrong from the start.
You werent someone who needs love.
You were just someone who wants to know.
Wants to experience.
And you treated me like a stepping stone.
While i dint.
So be it.You can get yourself an eyecandy.
You can do what you want. We have nothing to do with each other.
I was still thinking about you.
But i guess its no point thinking about someone who does not appericate it.
And still accuse me.
(biting the hand which feeds you)
I do the same.With my family.
I know whats it like.
From now on i offically declare that i wont even bother about you anymore.
All the times i thought about you.
All the times i wished you would change.
All the times i thought we were really in love
Were nothing more than just what i felt.
It was all drowned in lies that you overwhelmed me with.
So be it. You can decide what you wanna do than.
You can read my blog discriminate me
You can say what you want because i'm going to null myself.
Because your lies.
Your words.
no longer mean anything to me anymore.
I'm going to smash your existance in my mind.
Till its so dam small.
That it wont even remain.
I still keep your,Our pictures in my phone.
But i'm going to delete them.
Because that was not love.
Probably it was just an experience and thrill.
To you.
For myself.
I'll start over.
I know theres no time to waste.
I've got my life planned.
I've got a future to look ahead to .
I've got things i've to achieve.
Not for you, For us anymore.
But for MY soul mate.
You'll find yours i'll find mine.
You've caused enough hurt and pain.
Its time for me to gain.
7/22/2008 09:21:00 PM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Whatever
I never expected this.To know that my friend knew my ex friend.
And therefore linked to my ex.
She has a blog.
Just created i think?
I dont know who cares right?
She said i twisted her words.
Ya right?
All the "PROOF" i had. Deleted.
Sorry hor
I twist your words?
Me? Selfish? What makes you say that.
True i am selfish in certain expects.
What about you?
You NEVER GAVE A CHANCE TO CLARIFY
And you're saying its my fault
So be it ACCUSE ME
Accuse me and say its all my fault.
I admit alot of this is my fault.
So now you're just saying that i dont accept the Faults i commited?
All the things i've done wrong i dont face it?
What about you.
You ran away from the problem.
EYEcandies to get over me.
I've not gotten over you i know you havent too
But you know what?
You're glad we broke up?
I'm glad to okay?
You dont tell me anything I dont share somethings with you.
Let me tell you something k?
You go and ask maureen for HER true opinion hor.
† ®ävë † x] http://null-boy.blogspot.com/ Want something I'll never get. says:
i realised she reads my blog
† ®ävë † x] http://null-boy.blogspot.com/ Want something I'll never get. says:
ROFL
† ®ävë † x] http://null-boy.blogspot.com/ Want something I'll never get. says:
she said i twist her words?
† ®ävë † x] http://null-boy.blogspot.com/ Want something I'll never get. says:
c'b
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
=\
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
i read her blog..
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
yah i saw that
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
ouch.
Dont accuse me because i know what i've done.
Dont randomly say things about me because i know what i've said.
Dont say i dint mean what i said because if i dint why do i still care?
Its fucking over and i cant help thinking about you even if i dont want to
Yea its my fault k?
Everything its my fault .
Its my fault that i cant give up my love on you everything put the blame on me.
You can push all the blame to me .
And maureen said one more thing too.
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
i really have no idea.
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
too much information from both u and her
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
i cant say what she says doesnt have a point
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
and i cant deny u also said the truth
≈†εђ•¢αŧ≈ ZHIYU IS A NOOB. =\ AND A NOOB SHE SHALL REMAIN. says:
cuz i dont want to upset her
Thats what friends do.
They're there for one another.
And let me tell you something all your messages you sent me.
You dint want to see them right?
MAUREEN READ THEM.
Guess what she said.
I never expected ZhiWei to be this kinda person.
But so what?You go ask her yourself also la hor.
Accuse me accuse me.
I lie? Big fat liar?
Your birthday wish, etc.
Someone to love you.
I did all that . Dint i?
Ya what ever la we're both out of each other lives.
We don't need to clarify each others doubt
You can say what you want about me .
You can think what you wanna think .
But you know for yourself what you've done la hor.
You don't know?
Please look at my "extra" blog the few days after we broke up.
Those are the "real feelings" and stop accusing me on random.
Actually why do i need to prove my innocence to you.
I don't need to show you anything or prove
Great stuff you know i should have gotten to know your friends better.
So i can "prove" to them.
And another thing that reminded me of something
When i was in the bus with you
And your classmate saw us
You said that we were "cousins" yea right.
You love me so much.
That's your love right?
You want a serious relationship?
Screw yourself ba.A serious relationship when you don't say how you feel
And when you hide behind a wall.
Run off by yourself.
Send a message and ask for the last word.
So be it. That's what you did.
If you ever LOVE someone like me.
And get this treatment. All the best to you.
They're there for one another.
And let me tell you something all your messages you sent me.
You dint want to see them right?
MAUREEN READ THEM.
Guess what she said.
I never expected ZhiWei to be this kinda person.
But so what?You go ask her yourself also la hor.
Accuse me accuse me.
I lie? Big fat liar?
Your birthday wish, etc.
Someone to love you.
I did all that . Dint i?
Ya what ever la we're both out of each other lives.
We don't need to clarify each others doubt
You can say what you want about me .
You can think what you wanna think .
But you know for yourself what you've done la hor.
You don't know?
Please look at my "extra" blog the few days after we broke up.
Those are the "real feelings" and stop accusing me on random.
Actually why do i need to prove my innocence to you.
I don't need to show you anything or prove
Great stuff you know i should have gotten to know your friends better.
So i can "prove" to them.
And another thing that reminded me of something
When i was in the bus with you
And your classmate saw us
You said that we were "cousins" yea right.
You love me so much.
That's your love right?
You want a serious relationship?
Screw yourself ba.A serious relationship when you don't say how you feel
And when you hide behind a wall.
Run off by yourself.
Send a message and ask for the last word.
So be it. That's what you did.
If you ever LOVE someone like me.
And get this treatment. All the best to you.
After a long off day . And i read such stuff.
Seriously pisses me off.
Why must i come across this -.-
Why must i know WHY DID I HAVE TO KNOW THE TRUTH.
Reality hurts.
Seriously pisses me off.
Why must i come across this -.-
Why must i know WHY DID I HAVE TO KNOW THE TRUTH.
Reality hurts.
7/22/2008 09:03:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Tuesday , July 22 , 2008
Hormones
Hormones
Different people different characteristics.
Different mindsets
Different level of control
Different "sex"
Hormones.
Girls are more "sensitive"-Fragile.
Guys who are "taken advantaged" of should be "happy"?
Heard it on radio that you should be happy that people want you.
Whatever -.-
True that there are somethings we'll never know about the opposite sex.
But if you put yourself in their "shoes"
Maybe you might get a similar feeling or somewhat "know"
Friends..What are friends for?
They're there for one another.
And? How to be a real friend.
What is a friend needed to do.
In a relationship.
What are we supposed to do?
What are we not supposed to?
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-Your dream energy is strong right now and that means that you ought to be able to make serious progress on some ambition of yours. It might get a little crazy, but you can handle crazy!
-You could benefit from more exercise today. But the exercise you really need doesn't revolve around working out and getting sweaty -- it revolves around using your imagination and making something unique with it. Move your creative muscles as often as you can today, in as many ways as you can. When you email someone, add a rhyme or find an inspirational saying to add to your signature. When you're leaving a voice mail, why not do so in a song? It doesn't take much to add more fun to life.
Monday, July 21, 20087/21/2008 07:48:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Unfruitful
Game .
Gaming.
Gamed.
B-net are noobs
nothing out of the extraordinary.
Its very "common" to me already.
People at lan jio us play 3v3..
Accepted.
Lose 1st round.
Viper,Sniper,Naga VS SF,Drow,Potm
Dint think we would lose range vs melee etc.
hiaz still lost anyways.(they're quite good)
2nd game i owned -.- (spiritbreaker)
3rd game i owned as well. (cant remember)
Oh wells. guess i need to play seriously to pull up my stupid team.
Unfruitful day.Guess there's more to "learn"
And ZhiWei FYI Leslie smokes too -.-
KNS smoke smoke I'm surrounded by bad air ~
Savvee me.
Lan tonight?
See how not interested actually.
AND LESLIE PAID FOR MY "DINNER" AND LAN
OMG
xD
I'm so "happy"
Gonna shower now.
And sleep getting ready for my work at 6PM .
Thanks for all my "TRUE" friends who are here with me.
Though sometimes i don't know what to do.
And you all don't "care" about me.
But when we start to "talk".
We know that we'll be there for one another.
We just know it...
I hope.
I wish.
Gaming.
Gamed.
B-net are noobs
nothing out of the extraordinary.
Its very "common" to me already.
People at lan jio us play 3v3..
Accepted.
Lose 1st round.
Viper,Sniper,Naga VS SF,Drow,Potm
Dint think we would lose range vs melee etc.
hiaz still lost anyways.(they're quite good)
2nd game i owned -.- (spiritbreaker)
3rd game i owned as well. (cant remember)
Oh wells. guess i need to play seriously to pull up my stupid team.
Unfruitful day.Guess there's more to "learn"
And ZhiWei FYI Leslie smokes too -.-
KNS smoke smoke I'm surrounded by bad air ~
Savvee me.
Lan tonight?
See how not interested actually.
AND LESLIE PAID FOR MY "DINNER" AND LAN
OMG
xD
I'm so "happy"
Gonna shower now.
And sleep getting ready for my work at 6PM .
Thanks for all my "TRUE" friends who are here with me.
Though sometimes i don't know what to do.
And you all don't "care" about me.
But when we start to "talk".
We know that we'll be there for one another.
We just know it...
I hope.
I wish.
Generations are changing.
People are getting more materialistic.
Lazy.As they have what they want.
But is having what you want really going to make your life complete?
What is it in life are we trying to accomplish?
People are getting more materialistic.
Lazy.As they have what they want.
But is having what you want really going to make your life complete?
What is it in life are we trying to accomplish?
8.15am
While showering "I" was like wondering
why do i still care about her.
Its just so strange -.-
Hiaz.
Guess i am too deep 108 days together.
how many days have it been since we've broken up?
Close to 2 months already
26th eh?
Whatever.
I "dont care" i dont want to remember anyways.
But why cant i forget
Maybe cas i'm not "innocent" yet?
Maybe cas theres too much "damage"
Maybe cas i really loved her.
Maybe cas i really wanna know what is she thinking.
Because i wanna know how is she doing.
OH wtf.
Zzzz i've to get over her for crying out loud
SHES NOT WORTH IT
lalala *sobs*
why do i still care about her.
Its just so strange -.-
Hiaz.
Guess i am too deep 108 days together.
how many days have it been since we've broken up?
Close to 2 months already
26th eh?
Whatever.
I "dont care" i dont want to remember anyways.
But why cant i forget
Maybe cas i'm not "innocent" yet?
Maybe cas theres too much "damage"
Maybe cas i really loved her.
Maybe cas i really wanna know what is she thinking.
Because i wanna know how is she doing.
OH wtf.
Zzzz i've to get over her for crying out loud
SHES NOT WORTH IT
lalala *sobs*
What eva.
4.42pm
Quoted from Death note - L changes the world
-As long as you're alive
You can start over
No one has the right to take it away
-No matter how gifted you are.
You alone cannot change the world
-Find happiness
-Sometimes no matter how hard you try
you can never change the things you want to change the most
But that does not mean you cant start over.
Death note - L changes the world
Best watched with FireFox.
http://anijunkie.com/index.php?option=com_seyret&Itemid=27&task=videodirectlink&id=12253&navstart=0
Quoted from Death note - L changes the world
-As long as you're alive
You can start over
No one has the right to take it away
-No matter how gifted you are.
You alone cannot change the world
-Find happiness
-Sometimes no matter how hard you try
you can never change the things you want to change the most
But that does not mean you cant start over.
No matter how much that has happened.
No matter how much you've hurt me
No matter what has happened in the past.
I wished that we were still here together.
But in this life nothing will stay the same forever.
Nothing..Everything changes.
We change, Even if we don't want to.
I know its hard for me.Maybe you as well.
Time and again I've tried.Failure is part of my life.
Its not something i dint predict.
But its something that i never wanted to happen as it was my goal.
People without goals are people without "life"
My one and only most precious "goal" is now over.
The only thing i can do is to "start a new one"
But that will take some time.
And I've all the time but i think i need more than just time.
You were someone i really loved.
If only you felt the same way or could have done the same.
When i cared about you.
I was afraid i hurt you.
When i needed time.
You misunderstood me and never gave me a chance to explain.
Everyone else knew except you that give me your stubborn attitude
Its alright you cant be bothered anyways.
You don't care.
L changed the world.
Changed his "life span" I remember watching the other 2 with you
Specifically went to buy the movie to watch with you.
But as we know its over
Its just things change.
You've changed.
I've changed as well.
But that does not mean that everything also has to.
Time will tell.
Promises are broken-ed.
Hearts are broken-ed.
My life has been shattered again.
But life carries on.
No matter how small i become shattered.
There will still be my existence.
Only so small that it cant be seen.
No matter how much you've hurt me
No matter what has happened in the past.
I wished that we were still here together.
But in this life nothing will stay the same forever.
Nothing..Everything changes.
We change, Even if we don't want to.
I know its hard for me.Maybe you as well.
Time and again I've tried.Failure is part of my life.
Its not something i dint predict.
But its something that i never wanted to happen as it was my goal.
People without goals are people without "life"
My one and only most precious "goal" is now over.
The only thing i can do is to "start a new one"
But that will take some time.
And I've all the time but i think i need more than just time.
You were someone i really loved.
If only you felt the same way or could have done the same.
When i cared about you.
I was afraid i hurt you.
When i needed time.
You misunderstood me and never gave me a chance to explain.
Everyone else knew except you that give me your stubborn attitude
Its alright you cant be bothered anyways.
You don't care.
L changed the world.
Changed his "life span" I remember watching the other 2 with you
Specifically went to buy the movie to watch with you.
But as we know its over
Its just things change.
You've changed.
I've changed as well.
But that does not mean that everything also has to.
Time will tell.
Promises are broken-ed.
Hearts are broken-ed.
My life has been shattered again.
But life carries on.
No matter how small i become shattered.
There will still be my existence.
Only so small that it cant be seen.
Death note - L changes the world
Best watched with FireFox.
http://anijunkie.com/index.php?option=com_seyret&Itemid=27&task=videodirectlink&id=12253&navstart=0
7/21/2008 03:19:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Monday , July 21 , 2008
Grateful
Thank you gekky for being "here for me"!Went to sleep for awhile
Woke up to bathe -.-
Than i called leslie for fun.
He say go lan
Okay lo go lan steady one.
Saw the time 11. 38.
Gekky was telling me for a friend .
Just go only.
I was like okay sure.Since that what friends are for right?
Being there for one another.
Told leslie i see how.
I reached b4 him.
Called him.
He was still "coming"
I told him i reach le.
He said 30 mins. Fine 30 mins i can wait no probs.
Wait for 30 mins not here.
Sent a msg.No reply
Gave a call. Moody person picked it up.
Zzz i sian diao already lo
Nvm he said he'll come.
I wait... 2 hours.
SMS-ed. No reply. Called nobody pick
Fucking pissed -.-
Decided to walk home.
Gekky was still up at that time o.0
While walking back about 2/5 of the way.
Leslie called.
WTF?
AT LEAST HE APOLOGISED.
No longer angry liao.
He say pay my cab fare
I decided not to waste his money -.-
I WALKED BACK.
Now at lan -.- They go buy food eat.
That leslie what was he doing while i was "waiting"?
Having F-un with his GF.
Super crap day la. And the day before..
Zzz working afternoon shift today. Night rather.
Hope it goes smoothly
....
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-This is a good day to play things cool. Be low key, and you'll end up getting much more attention than you would if you were running around schmoozing with everyone. You don't get yourself noticed by being loud and aggressive -- you get yourself noticed by being different from everyone else around you. When they yell, you should whisper. When they're laughing, you should be serious. Make yourself contrast with the rambunctious people around you today, and you will become their leader.
-Like a struggling plant in the desert, your brain is eager to soak up every bit our nourishment that it can, today. At first, you might not feel like there is enough substance in the conversations you're involved in -- people seem to be too concerned with trivial matters and celebrity gossip when you really hunger for a good debate. But later on in the day, you will find the conversational partner you've been looking for. Dive right into it with them, and watch the two of you get closer than ever.
Sunday, July 20, 20087/20/2008 06:48:00 PM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Frustration.
Today.Go work .
Sian.
Pack pasta.
Pack onion rings.
Do "Blanket"
Etc cant remember.
Now fucking pissed thats all i know.
B4 that i was $%(*ing moody.
C'b no one listens de lo
Forget it dont listen i also dont care liaos.
I give chance.
I say a few times
No one wanna listen?
$(*care liaos.
Think i really care?
You all dont care why i care for #$&*(?
Think i care about what else you all have?
---(Ps for the vulgar langague 7.19)
Heh.
Suddenly think of smashing up everything in this house den run off.
but go where?
Good question to myself.
Dont know -.-
I dont need your "concerns"
After all this.
I think i'm really off better alone.
Just let anger overwhelm me
That covers all my past.
All my fears.
All my pain.
That anger..Frustration.
Is with who?
Myself?
Whateva.
7.06PM
Anger.Angry?Frustrated with who?
Actually it all comes down to myself.
I'm angry with myself.
I'm angry that i cant achieve what i want.
I'm angry that i've done so many stupid things in life.
I'm angry that i feel everything i've done could have been better.
But brooding about it wont change anything.
The more i think the more frustrating it becomes.
And i cant help it.
I just cant stop thinking -.-
I'm tired..
I'm going to sleep -.-
Anger.Angry?Frustrated with who?
Actually it all comes down to myself.
I'm angry with myself.
I'm angry that i cant achieve what i want.
I'm angry that i've done so many stupid things in life.
I'm angry that i feel everything i've done could have been better.
But brooding about it wont change anything.
The more i think the more frustrating it becomes.
And i cant help it.
I just cant stop thinking -.-
I'm tired..
I'm going to sleep -.-
One more thing to add.
I had weird dreams last night.
Dreamt about Sylvie, Charmaine, My work place.
Dreamt about my "dream house"
Dreamt about kids.
Dreamt about girls growing up.
Dreamt about decison,decison making.
Visioning alot of crap.
And stuff.
I saw weird stuff as well..
But yea.
When ever i think about ZhiWei
I think about the majority of girls.
But somehow
The only girls i see are getting "worse"
Someone please show me that there are good girls out there?
Theres a limit to everything.
Theres a limit to my happiness- I already know that.
Limit to my depression? - Seems to be falling deeper and deeper.
I can lie well.
But i cant lie to myself.
Because it like covering a huge hole in the wall with a wallpaper.
And its constantly being brokened.
I had weird dreams last night.
Dreamt about Sylvie, Charmaine, My work place.
Dreamt about my "dream house"
Dreamt about kids.
Dreamt about girls growing up.
Dreamt about decison,decison making.
Visioning alot of crap.
And stuff.
I saw weird stuff as well..
But yea.
When ever i think about ZhiWei
I think about the majority of girls.
But somehow
The only girls i see are getting "worse"
Someone please show me that there are good girls out there?
Theres a limit to everything.
Theres a limit to my happiness- I already know that.
Limit to my depression? - Seems to be falling deeper and deeper.
I can lie well.
But i cant lie to myself.
Because it like covering a huge hole in the wall with a wallpaper.
And its constantly being brokened.
Today i also reflected on my materialistic "wants"
I'm not really HAPPY.
Even with my new bag.
Charmaine said i should be proud!
But somehow that satisfaction is not there.
So what if i bought the bag on my own?
SO WHAT?
Its not enough to "please" me.
I rather give.
But still its a "necessity"
Sighs.I'm, Confused.
Actually nt really confused . I know what i want.
But i'm not going to give myself up to people who dont deserve "the better of me"
Can hear them "clearing the bowl" i smashed.
I warned. -.-
I'm not really HAPPY.
Even with my new bag.
Charmaine said i should be proud!
But somehow that satisfaction is not there.
So what if i bought the bag on my own?
SO WHAT?
Its not enough to "please" me.
I rather give.
But still its a "necessity"
Sighs.I'm, Confused.
Actually nt really confused . I know what i want.
But i'm not going to give myself up to people who dont deserve "the better of me"
Can hear them "clearing the bowl" i smashed.
I warned. -.-
Seriously hate people who dont listen.
Todays Scorpios Horoscope
-This is a good day to play things cool. Be low key, and you'll end up getting much more attention than you would if you were running around schmoozing with everyone. You don't get yourself noticed by being loud and aggressive -- you get yourself noticed by being different from everyone else around you. When they yell, you should whisper. When they're laughing, you should be serious. Make yourself contrast with the rambunctious people around you today, and you will become their leader.
7/20/2008 12:06:00 AM
Better off Alone
Forgive,Forgave,Forgiven there was nothing wrong to begin with.Its my fault.
Sunday , July 20 , 2008
Stressed.
Went to work today.Stressed.
Boring.
Boring...
Boringg...
Went for break at 5.
Went back at 6.
At night?
WTF MAN
They threw me to the "serious" side
ALONE SOMMORE.
Zzzzz Lucky i remember.
Lols.
Hiaz not that bad la Just feel tired and abit sian.
Today on the way home
Was thinking about "life"
About a month back there was this post.
This quote from the net.
From "experts", Saying
The main goal in life is to reproduce.
To me? I thought about life..
I Came out with this -.- (For myself)
The strangest thing is when you sacrifice something for the gain of another.
Which is the "wiser" choice?
Experience or Endurance.
Passionate or "Fake LOVE"
Whats best for the long run?
Basically i think the answer is pretty obvious is it not?
Love hurts -.- Love Is great.
Love is a double edged sword.
Only love can cure love "instantly"
That internal pain that cant be cured.
And hurts when you're alone.
Can make one seriously mentally insane.
Recently i feel theres something wrong (today)
maybe its just me?
Lust? Love? Imaginations?
As long as you want.
As long as you feel it is "right"
As long as you dont regret or feel anything about it.
Than life carries on normally because life only has 1 chance in certain expects.
How sure are you that the one chance that you take or that chance you're offered.
The right one for you?
Life is unfair.
Love.. Why do i want or "need" it.
Is it really what i want in my life?
Is it what i need?
What is it that i really want...
Questions after questions.
Answers are no where to be found.
Answers are no where to be found.
